sigh
this is so fucking hard. i dont wanna break up with randi, but i think that it needs to happpen. i havent been able to make her happy at all, so i really don think i should be wasting her time...plus im gonna be leavin soon anyways...i really dont wanna talk to her until at least newyears so that i dont make any decisions based off of my randi withdrawl, and base it entirely upon what i think, not what i long and yearn for.