road 2 recovery
y'know, i really thought that i would deal with rejection easier...i never thought i wouldve stoopd as low as i did. everywhere i lookd, heard, something would remind me of her. its hard. every sense has a memory of her. its so fucking hard. went for caffine. didnt work. yeah, not 2 happy with the shit that i did durning immediate letdown...not gonna do most of that shit agian.
so, 2 u guys out there, who broke down when the perfect one couldnt let u live ur life, made ur own decision, or just plain got scared of being loved, i raise my glass. ive shed tears for u men, and ive shed blood for me, and for her.
advice to all u 13-16 year olds: dont. u can only give that first love once. dont waste it. save it til u know for sure. cause if u see it as a first love, it wont ever leave. u can only give it once, make sure its also the lasting love. it may be perfect, it maybe the best for the both of u, but it doesnt necisarily last.
sure, u may've saved her, but she forgets soon, or, at least hides it. and she wont reform, shell just jump back into the bullshit, but this time, its with you. they may say they'll leave the drugs sex and alchol, but they wont. they never do. they dont realize that theyre better than u tell them, and u tell them they're ur world. but...they forget, they ignore, and they listen to hypocrasy rather than u.
p.s. randi...this is how i feel. i dont wanna piss u off, i just wanna let it out.
p.p.s. i do see u everwhere. and id rather be awake, so i can make myself busy, adn relieve myelf, and distract myself.
so, 2 u guys out there, who broke down when the perfect one couldnt let u live ur life, made ur own decision, or just plain got scared of being loved, i raise my glass. ive shed tears for u men, and ive shed blood for me, and for her.
advice to all u 13-16 year olds: dont. u can only give that first love once. dont waste it. save it til u know for sure. cause if u see it as a first love, it wont ever leave. u can only give it once, make sure its also the lasting love. it may be perfect, it maybe the best for the both of u, but it doesnt necisarily last.
sure, u may've saved her, but she forgets soon, or, at least hides it. and she wont reform, shell just jump back into the bullshit, but this time, its with you. they may say they'll leave the drugs sex and alchol, but they wont. they never do. they dont realize that theyre better than u tell them, and u tell them they're ur world. but...they forget, they ignore, and they listen to hypocrasy rather than u.
p.s. randi...this is how i feel. i dont wanna piss u off, i just wanna let it out.
p.p.s. i do see u everwhere. and id rather be awake, so i can make myself busy, adn relieve myelf, and distract myself.