Putting me first
For the first time in forever. I canceled my trip to San Antonio. I know that doesn't seem like a big deal, but I will tell you it's the biggest thing I've done for myself in a VERY long time. I NEED to finish my kitchen. I've been living here for almost 2 months without a kitchen. I've been gone most weekends and haven't made much progress. Welp, that's done now. I started sanding with my mom yesterday and made progress. I need to prime and then sand again and then paint. It's going to take 2 full days, maybe 3 to do it. Plus replacing all the handles and hardware.
After the week I had last week, I'm just not in the mood to put anyone above me right now. I want to do this. For me.
Also, kinda love the crap out of my soon to be x husband right now. And for the record, it is possible to love someone and not be in love with them. He found my purse from Kate Spade and sent it to me. I get it on Wednesday. YAY! Seriously, best thing ever. I love that purse. Not an everyday kind of thing, but a going out on the town kinda thing for sure.
As for my birthday... well, I've decided I'm going to do whatever the hell I want for the entire trip. There are certain people I will visit no matter what, but I want to do things that bring me joy. Not worry about others. Just me. I want to spend time alone with Annie and Erica, so I'm gonna. I'm going to stay with Annie and be harassed by Matty. Because I want to. If people want to see me, they can come to me. End of story. I've done enough for others. Full stop.