all i can do is fall down on my knees and cry holy..<3
so i've had a revelation of sorts. but first i'll summarize what's been going down so if you don't want to read the following paragraph of kari ramblings you don't have to. i've been working a lot, but i get a break this week.. i'm only workint 5 hours since people are home from college.. that pay check is gonna SUCK. tomorrow's powderpuff and my girls are going to whomp on chesire!! i really wish i was playing, but not playing for work was a smart decision and overall i think i made the right choice. if it's gonna rain like it will i don't think i'm going to go. no offense ladies, i do not want to sit in the pouring rain wishing i was playing. people are coming home for thanksgiving break and that's really exciting!! i'll definitely get to see anna which will be amazing and very refreshing, and hopefully meghan and alexis and christine. i've seen stine a couple times, but i haven't seen alexis and meghan in so long and i miss them terribly. that's all.
now.. for my revelation. it's kinda dumb, but it's one of those moments of clarity type things. you know things people tell you all the time and then you finally get it. so basically:
_my life is so good
_god always answers your prayers. you just have to realize it's in HIS timing, not yours
_i have a lot to be thankful for
sounds so simple right? it's funny though. the whole god's timing concept has always angered me because i'm human and i want things done on my time. i've been praying about my whole romantic situation and just pleading with god to give me that clarity or that *BAM!* we're not meant to be together, or OMG we so are!! haha and it hasn't come! i've been left in this massive amount of gray and confusion and i mean i never over-analyze or think about things too much.. (ha ha ha) but i've come to realize i just need to chill out and have faith in the fact god has heard every one of my prayers and he is going to answer them. i will have clarity. it might be tomorrow, it might not be months from now. but it's going to come. and i'm either going to get over him or have reason not to. we'll just have to wait and see and i'm pretty content with that.. do i really have another choice? there's absolutely nothing i can do about it. it's in god's hands now. and that's relieving. and things are good now.. i like them, and if this is how it's going to be for awhile, i can totally deal with that. word to your motha!
it's been real, and it's been fun
you know what?
it's been real fun!
*kari
now.. for my revelation. it's kinda dumb, but it's one of those moments of clarity type things. you know things people tell you all the time and then you finally get it. so basically:
_my life is so good
_god always answers your prayers. you just have to realize it's in HIS timing, not yours
_i have a lot to be thankful for
sounds so simple right? it's funny though. the whole god's timing concept has always angered me because i'm human and i want things done on my time. i've been praying about my whole romantic situation and just pleading with god to give me that clarity or that *BAM!* we're not meant to be together, or OMG we so are!! haha and it hasn't come! i've been left in this massive amount of gray and confusion and i mean i never over-analyze or think about things too much.. (ha ha ha) but i've come to realize i just need to chill out and have faith in the fact god has heard every one of my prayers and he is going to answer them. i will have clarity. it might be tomorrow, it might not be months from now. but it's going to come. and i'm either going to get over him or have reason not to. we'll just have to wait and see and i'm pretty content with that.. do i really have another choice? there's absolutely nothing i can do about it. it's in god's hands now. and that's relieving. and things are good now.. i like them, and if this is how it's going to be for awhile, i can totally deal with that. word to your motha!
it's been real, and it's been fun
you know what?
it's been real fun!
*kari