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Heres a thought. I've spent the longest time trying to figure out who I really am.. and know that I'm starting to understand all about what I need to.. people are trying to take that away from me. Jon is like, the only person who truly makes me happy.. ok, you may think.. oh yea Kara. whatever you say. Well, listen to what I have to say and maybe you can stop runnin your mouths for a whole two seconds and breathe between your complaints.
Ok, if you can remind me of a time when anyone of you wanted to really know what was wrong when I wasn't acting like I would on a good day.. and if you can remind me of a time when I asked for a small favor and you couldnt do it because there wasnt time.. or maybe you could think of a time when you didnt walk on me and use me for the little things that I give. I care about you guys more than anything in the world and when you do that to me.. I wanna die. If you only knew what it was like to live in the life of Kara Nichelle King and if you only knew how it felt to feel like there is only ONE person in the world who cares about you. Maybe then you'd understand. I give all that I can.. I do all that I can.. I say all that I can. Try being me for a day. Take the weight off of every single one of your friend's back and place it on yours. I doubt you'd last for five minutes.
You guys dont understand how much I dont have to say or do. I dont know how much that I dont have to give or hold. You reallly dont.
I just wish that you'd appreciate me for me. Jon is the only person who actually understands me.. he'll take me in his arms and tell me that I'll be ok. He'll talk to me about anything in the world whether it be changing my hair color to purple or about me wanting to give up on everything that I've got. Jon's my daily dose of inspiration.. he's the reason I'm here today. I'd already be gone if it weren't for him keeping me together.. I dont think that he gets enough credit for what all he does for me. I love him more than anyone and anything in the world. He's my everything..
I love you Jon.. you mean the world to me and I dont know what I'd do without you. You're always there even when I mess up. I thank you soooo much for that. I really dont give you enough credit for all that you do. You do things for me that you dont even know about. You're the smile upon my face and the light of my life. You're why I make it through everyday. Even when we weren't together, you were always on my mind.. I never knew what you were doing or who you were with and that didnt really bother me much.. its just that I figured that you probably weren't thinking about me. And I love you more than anything and I just wanted to see you smile at me once when you walked down the hall.. but all I saw was the hate that you had for me in your eyes.. But, baby.. I'm so glad we're together.. I love you!