About Time
These livejournal entries really kill me, because my head thinks so much faster than my fingers will ever be, so I'm constantly seconds behind. And I almost never write in here, my last entry was October 18th. I feel like I have something to prove, and I'm always wondering if anyone is actually going to read what I'm writing. Anyways, I wanted to come in here and try to explain the emotions I have been experiencing lately. This break really had its ups and downs, and I'm going to get them all out right now. Since good news always makes the bad news seem small and since one of my goals in life is to always find positives in things, I'm going to start with the downs of my break.
My mother's side of my family is fighting. I went to two different places on Christmas Eve to see one side of my family. My dad has offically pronounced us Switzerland during this fight, but I don't know how much longer I can go keeping my mouth shut. I am my mother's daughter.
Speaking of my mom, I passed the place where she is burried 4 times in the past week. I didn't even glace at the entrance, didn't even realize until I was passed the road. I hate that I've moved on. It scares me.
People blow me off and it really pisses me off.
I can't find the DVD remote for our TV. I have to watch Scrubs on the computer with headphones in my ears.
I'm done going out of my way to make someone happy and giving 110% of my spirit and then they give me nothing in return, not even a thank you.
I realized that half of the people I'm friends with this Christmas I won't even see much less speak to next Christmas.
Ok, thats enough of that. On to the positive, glass half full statements-
I got to see all of the new babies on my mom's side of the family.
When I opened all of my Christmas presents from my dad this year, I didn't like one thing he got me. He got me size nine jeans, XL tops, and a jogging suit. I told him I was taking it all back. He laughed so hard his face was turned red, and then he called my Aunt Vicki. She laughed too.
I got a popcorn machine for my grad party!
I went ice skating at the Onyx twice, and both times I didn't get made fun of for being the most horrible skater in the world!
Michigan lost to USC.
My dad let me have a New Years Eve/New Years Day party. Enough said :D
My New Years resloution was to show people how much they mean to me, and I started that today with Elizabeth Grey.
I hate how society says that a new year means a "new you". I know who I am, I know where I'm going, and I know whos going to be with me during this journey through 2007.
there are no endings, only new beginnings.