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It is coming up on the 4th year anniversary of Anna's death. I had dreams of her last night. Something has been bothering me for a long time. I kept seeing that guy who Anna said stole from her and was addicted to drugs on Facebook. The guy who was living with her. I kept thinking and thinking that I wanted to contact him. I've been contacting a lot of people on FB because I've felt the need the cleanse myself of a lot of things that happened, bad things.
So, I finally contacted him. Told him I hold no grudges and apologized for making any judgments without knowing. I said this whether I was right or wrong in my attacks of him when it all happened. His response was to say he held no grudges, had no issues with me, and that things were seriously messed up when all that happened. He went on to say that he did not care to relive it and that he is glad Anna is no longer suffering, that she is with God now. I told him I didn't care to relive it either. I'm wondering if he sort of knows he was wrong in the things he did, if he did in fact do them. But it doesn't matter. I doubt we'll stay in touch. Too much water under the bridge.
Now that it's all said and done, I'm glad that it's over. I'm glad it's been addressed. I don't need to ask him questions or get clarification or discuss any of it. It would be nice but it would be difficult and I can leave things as they are.
So, I finally contacted him. Told him I hold no grudges and apologized for making any judgments without knowing. I said this whether I was right or wrong in my attacks of him when it all happened. His response was to say he held no grudges, had no issues with me, and that things were seriously messed up when all that happened. He went on to say that he did not care to relive it and that he is glad Anna is no longer suffering, that she is with God now. I told him I didn't care to relive it either. I'm wondering if he sort of knows he was wrong in the things he did, if he did in fact do them. But it doesn't matter. I doubt we'll stay in touch. Too much water under the bridge.
Now that it's all said and done, I'm glad that it's over. I'm glad it's been addressed. I don't need to ask him questions or get clarification or discuss any of it. It would be nice but it would be difficult and I can leave things as they are.