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I hate being this miserable and sad...
Things with Tom aren't going so swimmingly... We've been fighting an awful lot here lately. I'm hoping it passes, but it certainly feels like things are different.
It seems like everytime my life starts falling apart, i get to a point where i miss my dad SOOO much. I mean... i just wish i could go tell him that things aren't going like they are supposed to... he'd give me a hug and probably tell me that things aren't going good cuz i'm not putting God first in my life. Maybe thats part of the reason... who knows? Like, i think of all the stuff that i'm eventually going to go through that he's not going to be here for... when i get engaged... when i get married... when i have kids... when my kids have birthdays... when i just need a hug.
Like tonight, i've been crying for almost and hour now. I just need someone to understand what i'm going through... and no one does. I feel like i should be over this after almost 3 years. I wish there was an easy way out.
Things with Tom aren't going so swimmingly... We've been fighting an awful lot here lately. I'm hoping it passes, but it certainly feels like things are different.
It seems like everytime my life starts falling apart, i get to a point where i miss my dad SOOO much. I mean... i just wish i could go tell him that things aren't going like they are supposed to... he'd give me a hug and probably tell me that things aren't going good cuz i'm not putting God first in my life. Maybe thats part of the reason... who knows? Like, i think of all the stuff that i'm eventually going to go through that he's not going to be here for... when i get engaged... when i get married... when i have kids... when my kids have birthdays... when i just need a hug.
Like tonight, i've been crying for almost and hour now. I just need someone to understand what i'm going through... and no one does. I feel like i should be over this after almost 3 years. I wish there was an easy way out.