Smiling
I had the nicest weekend! It's such a wonderful feeling that I can click this well with Patrick. I don't want to get ahead of myself, but it feels like I've known him all my life. He really understands me, and as much as he calls me weird, lol, we enjoy our time together.
I had a moment tonight in the Loblaws that I wish I hadn't had... He was just holding me and I got hit with the feeling that it's only temporary, because soon he'll be shipped off to Iraq. I'm trying to ignore that tug of doom and gloom as much as possible. I've never been the type to live for the moment, but I'm finally starting to. Because I'm not ready to give up what we have for what will be. Because how do I really know what will be? I don't, and it's useless to predict it now.
It's like when Nick broke up with me because of his mother. She was worried it would end badly between us, I guess, and thought it best to break it off early. But here's the thing, is that breaking it off early meant a bad ending. Either way it was going to be bad, so why not prolong the happiness as long as possible?
Unhappy times may come, but let them come. I'm just too happy right now, and I can't imagine giving that up.
I don't really have anything important to report... Whenever I'm happy I lose my ability to be poetic. Strange, eh? Ah well. At least I'm happy!
This term's almost over! WOOPAH!
Signing off,
- K.
I had a moment tonight in the Loblaws that I wish I hadn't had... He was just holding me and I got hit with the feeling that it's only temporary, because soon he'll be shipped off to Iraq. I'm trying to ignore that tug of doom and gloom as much as possible. I've never been the type to live for the moment, but I'm finally starting to. Because I'm not ready to give up what we have for what will be. Because how do I really know what will be? I don't, and it's useless to predict it now.
It's like when Nick broke up with me because of his mother. She was worried it would end badly between us, I guess, and thought it best to break it off early. But here's the thing, is that breaking it off early meant a bad ending. Either way it was going to be bad, so why not prolong the happiness as long as possible?
Unhappy times may come, but let them come. I'm just too happy right now, and I can't imagine giving that up.
I don't really have anything important to report... Whenever I'm happy I lose my ability to be poetic. Strange, eh? Ah well. At least I'm happy!
This term's almost over! WOOPAH!
Signing off,
- K.