Another rotation at Cisco
So I'm back in NC! I haven't updated in about 2 months.. I'm living by myself and man, I am the biggest slob in the world, but it doesn't really bother me. I'm on the lan switching team now and I've been doing this video/powerpoint slide bootcamps for the past 2 weeks. I'm supposed to start taking cases with the help of my mentor and I'm terrified.
Rhoumer and I are doing long distance and Ryan is trying again. Seriously, I don't know why I think I can do long distance, but I always do and it always ends up bad. I just have to keep reminding myself that I broke up with Ryan for a good reason even though he's a great guy. But there's something about people acting differently in front of others that bugs me. Why say something to me and then turn around and say something completely different and insulting about me to another person? I don't understand.. And in the back of my mind, I'm just waiting for one of us (me or Rhoumer) to fuck up the relationship. I'm so pessimistic gah
This rotation might be a little more lonely and more study-intensive as I won't be with Ryan all the freaking time. Oh wellll maybe I'll actually be productive this time around.
I'm turning 22 in 4 days! A year ago, I was with Ryan going to his beach house every other weekend.. A year from now, I'll have graduated (I hope). and that's as far as my plans go.. I don't know where I want to work or where I want to live. It's weird to say that a year ago, I was more sure of my plans for the future than I am now..
Rhoumer and I are doing long distance and Ryan is trying again. Seriously, I don't know why I think I can do long distance, but I always do and it always ends up bad. I just have to keep reminding myself that I broke up with Ryan for a good reason even though he's a great guy. But there's something about people acting differently in front of others that bugs me. Why say something to me and then turn around and say something completely different and insulting about me to another person? I don't understand.. And in the back of my mind, I'm just waiting for one of us (me or Rhoumer) to fuck up the relationship. I'm so pessimistic gah
This rotation might be a little more lonely and more study-intensive as I won't be with Ryan all the freaking time. Oh wellll maybe I'll actually be productive this time around.
I'm turning 22 in 4 days! A year ago, I was with Ryan going to his beach house every other weekend.. A year from now, I'll have graduated (I hope). and that's as far as my plans go.. I don't know where I want to work or where I want to live. It's weird to say that a year ago, I was more sure of my plans for the future than I am now..