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This is probably going to be one of those entries where my mind jumps around a lot.
So basically my whole families over for easter, and I'm sitting in my room bored out of my mind. I don't know I just really don't enjoy hanging out with the family for long periods of time. I'm really quite around them because there's nothing to talk about, and I'm afraid of what I CAN say. I think if I say the wrong thing they will think different of me, like in a bad way, I don't really know why. Holiday's aren't as much fun to me as they used to be, I guess it's because I've gotten older, and well "matured" a little bit, I don't really look foward to them like I used to. I don't really know what it is about it though.
In other words, last night was fun, I love just hanging out with my friends and going swimming & watching a movie. Even though we talk through most of the movie, I don't know what it is, but it's like a lot of times when we ahve a movie night we aren't calm enough to actually sit down and watch it, and I love that about my friends.
When it comes down to it, I don't really know what I want in a relationship anymore, I don't even really want a boyfriend right now. I just really want to date. I'm just not ready to settle with one guy until I know exactly what I want. When I take something to fast someone ends up getting hurt, and a lot of the time it's me. I guess I just don't like being alone, I feel insecure. I wish I knew what it was also.
So basically my whole families over for easter, and I'm sitting in my room bored out of my mind. I don't know I just really don't enjoy hanging out with the family for long periods of time. I'm really quite around them because there's nothing to talk about, and I'm afraid of what I CAN say. I think if I say the wrong thing they will think different of me, like in a bad way, I don't really know why. Holiday's aren't as much fun to me as they used to be, I guess it's because I've gotten older, and well "matured" a little bit, I don't really look foward to them like I used to. I don't really know what it is about it though.
In other words, last night was fun, I love just hanging out with my friends and going swimming & watching a movie. Even though we talk through most of the movie, I don't know what it is, but it's like a lot of times when we ahve a movie night we aren't calm enough to actually sit down and watch it, and I love that about my friends.
When it comes down to it, I don't really know what I want in a relationship anymore, I don't even really want a boyfriend right now. I just really want to date. I'm just not ready to settle with one guy until I know exactly what I want. When I take something to fast someone ends up getting hurt, and a lot of the time it's me. I guess I just don't like being alone, I feel insecure. I wish I knew what it was also.