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Sometimes in life it doesnt make sense. It doesnt make sense how one door closes and yet another window opens. I really hope I get a new job, but if I dont I will have to keep trying. Im thankful I met someonewho believes in me. It is a very weird thing to comprehend as I sit and wait for this individual to come home.
All i can say, is despite hurting inside, I think im managing to do pretty well. It is a pretty rocky weird crazy situation, especially spending time with people who want to get divorced. I feel like im just as guilty, yet i have nothing keeping me here or going there.
I guess i need to be selfish and do whats best for Kerry. SO im trying to do that. Yeah, I feel weird. Its been a while since Ive had a drink, and honestly, it feels really nice. I guess i Just dont know what to do or say anymore.
im exicited to be done with school. I also have to decide if I want to continue on and I think I do. I think.
It amazes me though, how god is always in the corner and has your back. Hes there when no one else is. I was reading my new bible last night and it just said how sometimes the shepherd has to break the sheeps legs to get the sheep on the right path. At the same time it hurts, but you know its for the best.
I want to get back involved with church again. I want to be happy again. I want to be the real me, who I know I am inside but doesnt show on the outside.
i guess i dont have much else to say, other than Im happy where I am. i think.
I feel relaxed, and getting to a point where i dont have to battle. Its not in my hands anymore.
All i can say, is despite hurting inside, I think im managing to do pretty well. It is a pretty rocky weird crazy situation, especially spending time with people who want to get divorced. I feel like im just as guilty, yet i have nothing keeping me here or going there.
I guess i need to be selfish and do whats best for Kerry. SO im trying to do that. Yeah, I feel weird. Its been a while since Ive had a drink, and honestly, it feels really nice. I guess i Just dont know what to do or say anymore.
im exicited to be done with school. I also have to decide if I want to continue on and I think I do. I think.
It amazes me though, how god is always in the corner and has your back. Hes there when no one else is. I was reading my new bible last night and it just said how sometimes the shepherd has to break the sheeps legs to get the sheep on the right path. At the same time it hurts, but you know its for the best.
I want to get back involved with church again. I want to be happy again. I want to be the real me, who I know I am inside but doesnt show on the outside.
i guess i dont have much else to say, other than Im happy where I am. i think.
I feel relaxed, and getting to a point where i dont have to battle. Its not in my hands anymore.