Sep 27, 2006 23:06
well as most of u i am at ucf and i has been a little over a month already and I hate it. I go to school then work at night and I barely have a life and it sucks. I also havent really met anybody yet which doesnt make things any easier. Also i am the first person in my ENTIRE family to go to college in america so my paretns dont understand and they r giving me a hard time about everything and my sis is being REALLY annoying lately. I feel like everything crashed down on me at once and i cant handle it anymore. I love my friends to death and would do and do anything for them but i never get anything in return. I am always ther for everyone but no one is there for me and Im sick of giving advice and people not listening anyway. I cant believe my mom was right. I always try to help my friends so they dont get hurt and they get mad at me. I give up, im so sick of being such a push over and i know i will never change and this is just talk but it is just annoying. sorry for this randomness but im kind of having a mental breakdown and i cant handle it cuz i am just trying to keep everything inside cuz i have no one to talk to. My mom doesnt notice or care, my sis is being really annoying, and i am always helping my friends with their problems that they dont ask about me. so thanks for listening.