I wish
I wish people still looked at these, I'd like to stay in touch but also write out my feelings. Myspace doesn't really do that ....nor does facebook...lol but yeah I do feel a little like a loser still trying to use this thing. o well.
The reason why I started up this whole thing again is because I found davids and it depressed me pretty badly. I'm the type of person that takes things to the heart, you know the one that really thinks about it and lets it get to them. I lead with my heart not my head. The one thing that I refuse to let out so easily is my LOVE. I dont understand it but I know it exists. .....well lately I've been feeling pretty much like "just another girl"....it hurts so bad! ....I need something thats mine.....I dont want to be spoken to just like every other girl...if I'm the one....the one that you really mean everything you say to then....why dont I feel as special as all the others....I feel like I dont measure up....measure up to girls you have said horrible things about ....girls you dont have any desire to talk to anymore...but yet I still feel like when you DID want to talk to them ...they were like a God in you're eyes...whereas I feel less.....and I'm suppose to be the one??........
.....no songs....no poems.....no pages on pages of how great I am.....nothing....has been written like that about me....
The reason why I started up this whole thing again is because I found davids and it depressed me pretty badly. I'm the type of person that takes things to the heart, you know the one that really thinks about it and lets it get to them. I lead with my heart not my head. The one thing that I refuse to let out so easily is my LOVE. I dont understand it but I know it exists. .....well lately I've been feeling pretty much like "just another girl"....it hurts so bad! ....I need something thats mine.....I dont want to be spoken to just like every other girl...if I'm the one....the one that you really mean everything you say to then....why dont I feel as special as all the others....I feel like I dont measure up....measure up to girls you have said horrible things about ....girls you dont have any desire to talk to anymore...but yet I still feel like when you DID want to talk to them ...they were like a God in you're eyes...whereas I feel less.....and I'm suppose to be the one??........
.....no songs....no poems.....no pages on pages of how great I am.....nothing....has been written like that about me....