what to do with an hour?
i'm sitting here at school in boredom with nothing to do for about another hour and a half. which i guess isnt bad, could be worse. todays finally friday so ive reached the end of my first week of college, whew. it wasnt nearly as confusing as i thought it would be, actually by the second day i felt like i actually knew where everything was. my classes are all easy so far. teachers are okay, they all remind me of someone. my math professor reminds me of this old nun that was at queen of peace when i was a freshman, my english teacher reminds me of ms. caroll from qop too, and chem reminds me of the nutty professor..he wore crazy glow in the dark glasses and blew up a hydrogen balloon in class yesterday hehe. i actually like taking the train and bus everyday. it makes me feel more independent. rick gives me a ride home mon, weds., and fri. after school on account that he lives on my block and we both get out at the same time those days, so it works out, definately saves me money :-P i ran into some more qop people that i had no idea went here. i actually had a lengthy chat with liz boyle the other day, she gave me a hug when i said hi to her, lol weird considering i never really talked to the girl in high school. i am becoming very broke these days. campus food is expensive. i need to get a weekend job- STAT. im excited about the weekend. for one, i will be able to sleep in past 6:30AM for the first time this week, and secondly because i get to see chris for our 9 month anniversary on saturday, im really excited :-D hes been really great lately with school and everything. so ive been thinking alot lately about friends. how alot have gone away on my account i suppose. some of them i dont understand why they did, and those are basically the only ones i really miss and wish to get back. others i would have also wished to have back in my life, but too much has happened and i guess with what i have done, alot of those former friends have been driven to backstabbing, spreding rumors, and immature things like that..ive had random people strike up conversation with me out of nowhere the past couple days saying things like 'so i've heard that you changed?' im just like what the fuck- not u too now!.. but im not going to give into that. im not going to sit here and quarrel back for days and weeks at a time, im not even going to get mad. im just going to ask that we put an end to it. stop talking about it. stop dragging other people into it. you know who u are. just leave it in the past unless u want it to keep surfacing and get worse. as much as ive been saying things are beyond repair, ive always thought that there was still something left with some of these friendships, at least enough to maybe spark things back up some day down the line. but when people continuously bad mouth me because of it or try to have others siding with them, that just defeats the purpose of keeping that hope of rekindlement alive anymore. but im done now, just my stupid babbling. i hope everyone else's college experiences are going well. byebye