Not third time lucky
I've just finished a lackluster performance and I am very disappointed with myself. I got just a bit of applause and some people got up and left while I was up on stage. That doesn't bother me though; it's the lack of any transmitted energy between myself and the audience. They didn't really hear what I was saying, and I can just feel it, you know?
I blame my not practicing and just going up there reading, but I know that some people go up with a piece of paper and still floor the audience. I really hate this; the idea that I'm just a mediocre artist/writer with hit-miss hit-miss hit-miss miss miss miss. No one who does writing as much as I do want to be just up there to express myself. I want to be heard so badly.
I'm scared that I can't channel the same energy I had while I was at Pod's to future performances.
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