struggling for balance
I'm forcing myself to break the inadvertent lj silence.
There's a momentum thing at work here; the longer it's been since I've posted, the more I feel like I have to make some all-encompassing update, and it quickly becomes just Too Much. So I'm consciously saying Screw That, and writing something quick and haphazard, dammit.
I've been quiet in part because a lot of my recent writing energy has gone toward Pocketmint. And in part, I am embarrassed to admit, because I resumed playing WoW.
I periodically go cold-turkey on the gaming for months at a time, and my overall life always shows measurable improvement when I do. I get more done. But eventually I start talking about it with people, and I get sucked back in, and ... my Real Life productivity suffers.
I'm working on that. Today I am *not* going to log on until I've finished my current Pocketmint post.
In other news: it's been a rough week. My insomnia has returned, coincident with a bunch of early morning appointments. This has resulted in horrible headaches and intermittent nausea. I also had a rare spate of panic attacks yesterday, for no particular reason. This happens to me maybe two to four times a year, usually just for one day, and every time I kick myself for not having asked for an anti-anxiety prescription ... but I never think about it when I'm at the doctor, because it may have been months since my last attack. I'm due for the annual physical now, so I have *got* to remember this time.
There's a momentum thing at work here; the longer it's been since I've posted, the more I feel like I have to make some all-encompassing update, and it quickly becomes just Too Much. So I'm consciously saying Screw That, and writing something quick and haphazard, dammit.
I've been quiet in part because a lot of my recent writing energy has gone toward Pocketmint. And in part, I am embarrassed to admit, because I resumed playing WoW.
I periodically go cold-turkey on the gaming for months at a time, and my overall life always shows measurable improvement when I do. I get more done. But eventually I start talking about it with people, and I get sucked back in, and ... my Real Life productivity suffers.
I'm working on that. Today I am *not* going to log on until I've finished my current Pocketmint post.
In other news: it's been a rough week. My insomnia has returned, coincident with a bunch of early morning appointments. This has resulted in horrible headaches and intermittent nausea. I also had a rare spate of panic attacks yesterday, for no particular reason. This happens to me maybe two to four times a year, usually just for one day, and every time I kick myself for not having asked for an anti-anxiety prescription ... but I never think about it when I'm at the doctor, because it may have been months since my last attack. I'm due for the annual physical now, so I have *got* to remember this time.