Free at last....
School is over for the summer, and at last I can BREATHE!!! It helps to know that I got solid A's in both Honors Ethics and Honors Speech, and probably a B in Lit. Great great great. I'm so proud of myself and I'm so glad I managed to pull off my freshman year of college so well. Now I have a nice LONG break to relax and unwind. Well, kind of. Besides work and karate, that is! But at least with work anyway, there are no grades! Just money :-)
I just got done watching "Gay Weddings" on DVD. It was a Bravo series on awhile back that I actually heard about from Tif. It tells the story of four gay couples, 2 gay male couples and 2 lesbian couples, and their wedding stories. It talks about their struggles and everything, and how happy it is but hard at the same time. I still have 2 more episodes but I will watch them tomorrow night. It's so cool...like it's really inspiring. I hope that someday that will be me getting married....someday not TOO far away.....like after college obviously but I don't want to be TOO old :-) I just hope I find the right woman someday....I know that I will. I definitely know you can't rush things, even when it's hard. You can't just date someone just for the sake of dating someone. I have to have that special connection with them, something that keeps bringing me back to her over and over again.
Ugh...I have a thing for a straight girl. A BIG thing! I've had it for months. It wasn't there for a month or so, but then it came back, just as strong as ever. She knows I'm gay and she is cool with it but I'm 99.9% sure that she is completely straight, not even bi...she has a boyfriend too. I don't know what attracts me to her, besides the fact that she is good-looking. There's something else that I can't put my finger on, something that really draws me to her. Maybe it's cuz she's so outgoing and so spontaneous, and I have so much fun with her! I don't know. It drives me NUTS! I kinda have a thing for her older sister too, who is absolutely GORGEOUS....but straight too. Also very cool with me being gay. Why is it the straight girls that attract me?
One thing I've recently learned is that I can't tell myself I have a type. Like I can't say I like only feminine ones, or only androgynous ones, or anything like that. I can't say I've never been attracted to a more butch chick, cuz in all reality, I have. Not very often, but it has happened. I can say that I prefer thinner girls and that is a given most of the time but there is always exceptions. Tif is a bigger girl (and by that I DO NOT mean fat!) and there was DEFINITELY attraction there! But as a whole, I like thinner girls, or with body types like me. I have to stop limiting myself. Who knows who Miss Right is going to be or what she will look like? I have NO way of knowing.
Well I'm gonna take a shower and crash...got Jess's grad party tomorrow. Ugh, I hate parties. Well.....more later.
I just got done watching "Gay Weddings" on DVD. It was a Bravo series on awhile back that I actually heard about from Tif. It tells the story of four gay couples, 2 gay male couples and 2 lesbian couples, and their wedding stories. It talks about their struggles and everything, and how happy it is but hard at the same time. I still have 2 more episodes but I will watch them tomorrow night. It's so cool...like it's really inspiring. I hope that someday that will be me getting married....someday not TOO far away.....like after college obviously but I don't want to be TOO old :-) I just hope I find the right woman someday....I know that I will. I definitely know you can't rush things, even when it's hard. You can't just date someone just for the sake of dating someone. I have to have that special connection with them, something that keeps bringing me back to her over and over again.
Ugh...I have a thing for a straight girl. A BIG thing! I've had it for months. It wasn't there for a month or so, but then it came back, just as strong as ever. She knows I'm gay and she is cool with it but I'm 99.9% sure that she is completely straight, not even bi...she has a boyfriend too. I don't know what attracts me to her, besides the fact that she is good-looking. There's something else that I can't put my finger on, something that really draws me to her. Maybe it's cuz she's so outgoing and so spontaneous, and I have so much fun with her! I don't know. It drives me NUTS! I kinda have a thing for her older sister too, who is absolutely GORGEOUS....but straight too. Also very cool with me being gay. Why is it the straight girls that attract me?
One thing I've recently learned is that I can't tell myself I have a type. Like I can't say I like only feminine ones, or only androgynous ones, or anything like that. I can't say I've never been attracted to a more butch chick, cuz in all reality, I have. Not very often, but it has happened. I can say that I prefer thinner girls and that is a given most of the time but there is always exceptions. Tif is a bigger girl (and by that I DO NOT mean fat!) and there was DEFINITELY attraction there! But as a whole, I like thinner girls, or with body types like me. I have to stop limiting myself. Who knows who Miss Right is going to be or what she will look like? I have NO way of knowing.
Well I'm gonna take a shower and crash...got Jess's grad party tomorrow. Ugh, I hate parties. Well.....more later.