So...
I suppose I should tell you all how The Meeting went?
It was a bit of a nonevent, TBH, which I'm fine with. As I was walking to the tournament, I kept expecting to get nervous. I get nervous about everything. I was nervous for my official orientation at work yesterday, and I've been working there since June. Weak stomach, is what I'm saying. But I wasn't nervous today. At all. And I think it was because I knew it was going to be low pressure and not just us. And it was fine! He's not drop dead gorgeous hot hot hot, but he's attractive in a nerdy, cuddly way. He's got a nice voice. And it was really casual. He was in the middle of a game when I got there so there wasn't even a grand 'how do you do' type greeting, just waved and said hi like it wasn't the first time we were meeting, and he went back to playing, and I tried to figure out the rules which is pretty much impossible from observation (there were models, and dice, and tape measures), and we kind of talked a bit here and there. He lost, but was a real good sport about it, which was nice to see. He and the guy he was playing were clearly having a blast so it was kind of fun to watch even though I was totally lost.
We made some small talk and joked around a bit. He gave me a hug when I left. He had pizza in the other hand, so it was a very casual hug, lol.
We weren't exactly melting the walls with the sparks or anything, but considering I've had nightmares about trying to interact with men, I think it went well for a first meeting. I don't see myself ever having a love/lust at first sight kind of relationship. I'm too cautious and pessimistic and have trust issues with guys thanks to some assholes in middle school. But he seemed like someone I could hang out with, maybe. And if it grew into something else, then great, and if not, oh well.
It was a bit of a nonevent, TBH, which I'm fine with. As I was walking to the tournament, I kept expecting to get nervous. I get nervous about everything. I was nervous for my official orientation at work yesterday, and I've been working there since June. Weak stomach, is what I'm saying. But I wasn't nervous today. At all. And I think it was because I knew it was going to be low pressure and not just us. And it was fine! He's not drop dead gorgeous hot hot hot, but he's attractive in a nerdy, cuddly way. He's got a nice voice. And it was really casual. He was in the middle of a game when I got there so there wasn't even a grand 'how do you do' type greeting, just waved and said hi like it wasn't the first time we were meeting, and he went back to playing, and I tried to figure out the rules which is pretty much impossible from observation (there were models, and dice, and tape measures), and we kind of talked a bit here and there. He lost, but was a real good sport about it, which was nice to see. He and the guy he was playing were clearly having a blast so it was kind of fun to watch even though I was totally lost.
We made some small talk and joked around a bit. He gave me a hug when I left. He had pizza in the other hand, so it was a very casual hug, lol.
We weren't exactly melting the walls with the sparks or anything, but considering I've had nightmares about trying to interact with men, I think it went well for a first meeting. I don't see myself ever having a love/lust at first sight kind of relationship. I'm too cautious and pessimistic and have trust issues with guys thanks to some assholes in middle school. But he seemed like someone I could hang out with, maybe. And if it grew into something else, then great, and if not, oh well.