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1. I meant to mention this last week when it actually happened- I got my paper back criticizing the changes made for the movie Atemisia, which is supposed to be based on the real Artemisia (except for how it changes the entire fucking point, idiots). Anyway, I got an A+! And I wanted to share it with you not to brag, but to honestly thank you all. Because really, being part of this community and talking with all of you has given me a better understanding of how to analyze what I'm reading/watching that nearly two decades of school did. I love you all.
And speaking of school, I'm all registered for my last semester of classes! It's going to be insane, though. Tuesdays and Thursdays are back to back to back studio classes. 3 hours of sculpture, 10 minute break, 3 hours of printmaking, 10 minute break, 3 hours of painting, going home and collapsing. Should be fun.
2. Vala usually cuddles with me at night. At first it was weird and distracting, because we always shut out doors at night when I lived with my parents, so our pets never slept with any of use. But now I'm so used to it that I felt lonely without her when I was at the hotel in Minneapolis for 5 days. However, as mush as I love it now, it's still annoying when she decides to continuously poke me in the face while I'm sleeping. Which she's done two nights in a row now. Seriously, I woke up with her seemingly trying to stick her paw up my nose. Whatever. The good news is she's starting to eat more again. She was eating so little for awhile that I was really concerned. But then it occurred to me that she's losing her baby teeth, and that probably doesn't feel to good. There's been no teeth sitings for a week or so now, and her appetite is much improved.
3. In my ongoing struggle to figure out What To Do With My Life, this is where I'm at currently.
The only thing I have decided for sure is that I am not doing grad school right now. I may decide to go back later, but everyone I talked to at the print conference said the same thing. It's absolutely insane to try to do grad applications and portfolios while you put together your senior show. Insane. And, frankly, I don't think I have to portfolio to get in right now. At open portfolio at the conference, literally every other undergrad who showed from my school was give cards from MFA professors asking them to apply to their school. Except me. It's not like I'm totally depressed or discouraged or feel I'm a failure because of this. It just confirmed what I already suspected, which is that I don't yet have a strong portfolio. It took me a long time to figure out a strong conceptual angle to my work. I'm really only just beginning to actualize it.
So the question now becomes, stay in Lincoln for a little while, or move to Portland immediately.
Portland:
Pros
More independence
Beautiful part of the country
No sales tax
Better public transportation
A temperate climate that is more my preference than the extremes of NE
Close to the beach, and to mountains if I miss snow
Better art scene
Several school in the area where I could apply for grad school if I decide to go back to school later
Cons
Higher cost of living
Further from family (or at least the family I actually know and am comfortable with) if something goes wrong
Costs to move my shit out there, even without taking any furniture with me
Unfamiliarity with the job market and local businesses
Difficulty getting hired long distance
Won't know anyone out their except family I've only met once, and I'm not someone who meets new people easily
Lincoln:
Pros
Family in immediate area
Familiar with city and job market
Much lower cost of living (in theory allowing me to build up a savings faster)
Familiar with local art scene
Know people in the art scene (and just, you know, in general)
Cons
It's Nebraska
I could set a schedule for myself to leave and then find more reasons not to, and end up stuck here forever
It's Nebraska
I have to rely on Star Tran, and once I graduate I actually have to pay to use their shitty buses
It's Nebraska
Being more familiar with the job market doesn't mean I have any more of an idea what the hell to look for in a job
Did I mention it's still Nebraska?
IDK. I think I'm still going to go to Portland over spring break and look around. I can visit some of the print studios and galleries and introduce myself to people. Who knows, maybe I'll stumble onto a job that way. In the end, it's probably going to come down to where I can find a job. Deciding not to do grad school means I don't have a deadline anymore to choose where to go, so I'm sure I'll still be wringing my hands and changing my mind every two seconds right up until I graduate.
4. Let's play a game. River Song, Vala Mal Doran, Jo Harvelle, and Kara Thrace walk into a bar. Who orders shots, who wants to play poker, who passes out first, and who starts the bar fight?
And speaking of school, I'm all registered for my last semester of classes! It's going to be insane, though. Tuesdays and Thursdays are back to back to back studio classes. 3 hours of sculpture, 10 minute break, 3 hours of printmaking, 10 minute break, 3 hours of painting, going home and collapsing. Should be fun.
2. Vala usually cuddles with me at night. At first it was weird and distracting, because we always shut out doors at night when I lived with my parents, so our pets never slept with any of use. But now I'm so used to it that I felt lonely without her when I was at the hotel in Minneapolis for 5 days. However, as mush as I love it now, it's still annoying when she decides to continuously poke me in the face while I'm sleeping. Which she's done two nights in a row now. Seriously, I woke up with her seemingly trying to stick her paw up my nose. Whatever. The good news is she's starting to eat more again. She was eating so little for awhile that I was really concerned. But then it occurred to me that she's losing her baby teeth, and that probably doesn't feel to good. There's been no teeth sitings for a week or so now, and her appetite is much improved.
3. In my ongoing struggle to figure out What To Do With My Life, this is where I'm at currently.
The only thing I have decided for sure is that I am not doing grad school right now. I may decide to go back later, but everyone I talked to at the print conference said the same thing. It's absolutely insane to try to do grad applications and portfolios while you put together your senior show. Insane. And, frankly, I don't think I have to portfolio to get in right now. At open portfolio at the conference, literally every other undergrad who showed from my school was give cards from MFA professors asking them to apply to their school. Except me. It's not like I'm totally depressed or discouraged or feel I'm a failure because of this. It just confirmed what I already suspected, which is that I don't yet have a strong portfolio. It took me a long time to figure out a strong conceptual angle to my work. I'm really only just beginning to actualize it.
So the question now becomes, stay in Lincoln for a little while, or move to Portland immediately.
Portland:
Pros
More independence
Beautiful part of the country
No sales tax
Better public transportation
A temperate climate that is more my preference than the extremes of NE
Close to the beach, and to mountains if I miss snow
Better art scene
Several school in the area where I could apply for grad school if I decide to go back to school later
Cons
Higher cost of living
Further from family (or at least the family I actually know and am comfortable with) if something goes wrong
Costs to move my shit out there, even without taking any furniture with me
Unfamiliarity with the job market and local businesses
Difficulty getting hired long distance
Won't know anyone out their except family I've only met once, and I'm not someone who meets new people easily
Lincoln:
Pros
Family in immediate area
Familiar with city and job market
Much lower cost of living (in theory allowing me to build up a savings faster)
Familiar with local art scene
Know people in the art scene (and just, you know, in general)
Cons
It's Nebraska
I could set a schedule for myself to leave and then find more reasons not to, and end up stuck here forever
It's Nebraska
I have to rely on Star Tran, and once I graduate I actually have to pay to use their shitty buses
It's Nebraska
Being more familiar with the job market doesn't mean I have any more of an idea what the hell to look for in a job
Did I mention it's still Nebraska?
IDK. I think I'm still going to go to Portland over spring break and look around. I can visit some of the print studios and galleries and introduce myself to people. Who knows, maybe I'll stumble onto a job that way. In the end, it's probably going to come down to where I can find a job. Deciding not to do grad school means I don't have a deadline anymore to choose where to go, so I'm sure I'll still be wringing my hands and changing my mind every two seconds right up until I graduate.
4. Let's play a game. River Song, Vala Mal Doran, Jo Harvelle, and Kara Thrace walk into a bar. Who orders shots, who wants to play poker, who passes out first, and who starts the bar fight?