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life is quite the grand adventure
every once and awhile posting in here is needed
the past month has been....trying....to say the least
we got a marriage
an arrest
a rejection
among lots of little things
but its time to listen to my own advice and weigh out those days and see the good through the bad. one good thing should be focused rather than a day of bad ones.
i went to sushi with kappa kelly and her serena-chinese-laundry boots and pashmina and diamond dangle earrings...
i'm obsessed with her because despite all the glitz she's one of hte most real people at this school
we were talking about home...i was telling her stories about high school that she had never heard and when i was done with some of the more recent and more dramatic stories she just looked at me and goes
"you're life is like an after school show"
amen.
its one thing after another, good and bad, loving and painful. all important though and i've learned so much in the past few years from my amazing friends
perspective. thats what i get at home
when i'm overwhelemd by LA
and this school
and the money that jumps out of walets
and the trendy clothes i could never afford
i go home
i spend time with people who show me the value in the things i have and how lucky i am to be who and where i am. i can help them in a more meaningful way, and they in turn help me in meaningful ways
like the GP - Brendan fiasco of two or three weeks ago
how no matter that there was no more partying going on, we all still stayed together, being around each other
i miss that physical presence of love in my life here.
this summer i got so used to being around people all the time from...literally the moment i went to sleep (either WITH someone or after dropping off someone) to the time i woke up i was around friends. It was hugs and holding hands and cuddling and physical reminders that i'm a worthwhile person.
perspective.
what's REALLY important
what reality REALLY is
its not sunset strip and geisha house
its not selfishness and competition for the frat boy
its about selflessness
and love and friends and hte common good
suck it machiavelli i don't believe in your manichaeism and negative view of the human nature
my life and the people in it are PROOF against that pessismistic view
spencer was marvelling at my dual personality at the g-rents
one minture i was making the summer dvd trying to impart on him the amazingness that is my lovely freidns and how good people make bad decisions all the time
the next i was contemplating whether or not i was more neo-liberal institutionalist or leaning still more towrads Grotian Reformer views.
"paige i don't get you"
"what do you mean"
"one second you're all hooligan whoa dude the next you're miss save the planet USC"
ha. thats what life's about tho my friend.
i think thats the problem with people in government today. the people who run the great powers..theri lack of reality
fil hakeykawk ( that arabic for in reality! ) having a sense of how the everyday person lives gives you a better persepctive on human nature
i think that society needs to move away from suburbia and move back towards communities - no more of community within a household
it takes a town to raise a family
and it takes a family like the one i have to raise an aware citizen
my big dysfunctional real loving ridiculous family
my negativity the past few weeks is over. life.is.too.short
channeling that energy back to where it was before. to my work..why i'm here after all
to my friends here - they love me...some do....and i love most of them. so i need to show it more
to finding some boys to hang out with - they keep me sane!
to laughing at life and living it here in this city with these people here and hte people from home always always always with me and still a tangible prescence in my life
who knows when one of them will leave me
so i need to love all of them NOW
living in the here and now
some call me the gangster of love
every once and awhile posting in here is needed
the past month has been....trying....to say the least
we got a marriage
an arrest
a rejection
among lots of little things
but its time to listen to my own advice and weigh out those days and see the good through the bad. one good thing should be focused rather than a day of bad ones.
i went to sushi with kappa kelly and her serena-chinese-laundry boots and pashmina and diamond dangle earrings...
i'm obsessed with her because despite all the glitz she's one of hte most real people at this school
we were talking about home...i was telling her stories about high school that she had never heard and when i was done with some of the more recent and more dramatic stories she just looked at me and goes
"you're life is like an after school show"
amen.
its one thing after another, good and bad, loving and painful. all important though and i've learned so much in the past few years from my amazing friends
perspective. thats what i get at home
when i'm overwhelemd by LA
and this school
and the money that jumps out of walets
and the trendy clothes i could never afford
i go home
i spend time with people who show me the value in the things i have and how lucky i am to be who and where i am. i can help them in a more meaningful way, and they in turn help me in meaningful ways
like the GP - Brendan fiasco of two or three weeks ago
how no matter that there was no more partying going on, we all still stayed together, being around each other
i miss that physical presence of love in my life here.
this summer i got so used to being around people all the time from...literally the moment i went to sleep (either WITH someone or after dropping off someone) to the time i woke up i was around friends. It was hugs and holding hands and cuddling and physical reminders that i'm a worthwhile person.
perspective.
what's REALLY important
what reality REALLY is
its not sunset strip and geisha house
its not selfishness and competition for the frat boy
its about selflessness
and love and friends and hte common good
suck it machiavelli i don't believe in your manichaeism and negative view of the human nature
my life and the people in it are PROOF against that pessismistic view
spencer was marvelling at my dual personality at the g-rents
one minture i was making the summer dvd trying to impart on him the amazingness that is my lovely freidns and how good people make bad decisions all the time
the next i was contemplating whether or not i was more neo-liberal institutionalist or leaning still more towrads Grotian Reformer views.
"paige i don't get you"
"what do you mean"
"one second you're all hooligan whoa dude the next you're miss save the planet USC"
ha. thats what life's about tho my friend.
i think thats the problem with people in government today. the people who run the great powers..theri lack of reality
fil hakeykawk ( that arabic for in reality! ) having a sense of how the everyday person lives gives you a better persepctive on human nature
i think that society needs to move away from suburbia and move back towards communities - no more of community within a household
it takes a town to raise a family
and it takes a family like the one i have to raise an aware citizen
my big dysfunctional real loving ridiculous family
my negativity the past few weeks is over. life.is.too.short
channeling that energy back to where it was before. to my work..why i'm here after all
to my friends here - they love me...some do....and i love most of them. so i need to show it more
to finding some boys to hang out with - they keep me sane!
to laughing at life and living it here in this city with these people here and hte people from home always always always with me and still a tangible prescence in my life
who knows when one of them will leave me
so i need to love all of them NOW
living in the here and now
some call me the gangster of love