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letting everyone know i'm still alive. kittens are doing good and everything seems pretty normal, well as normal as they get for me. still feel lost as hell without kittie to nudge me in the right direction. hell everything feels wrong without her. it's going to take a long time for that to heal. the fact her birthday is creeping up gives me new fear for all the dread and depression i shall feel on that day. anyway still here still alive and i have hope that each new day will be better than the last. later all.