hard night last night
I had severe trouble getting to sleep last night. i didn't close my eyes until about 5am and got up at noon. lately i've been crashing a lot earlier than that. had to go back to drinking pepto today, at one time my anxiety was so bad i had to drink it to keep from being sick. well i'm doing it again. even with everyone around me (all guys right now) i feel alone. usually i talk to a girl when things get like this cause they usually know what to say or how to act. i have people i can talk to online but not in person. guess i'll just deal with it., so sorry if i text anyone too much. i know it's starting to hit me and i think for the first time in my life ,i'm afraid.