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I am so frustrated.
I hate opening up to people because no matter what I always get hurt.
And I always open up to the wrong people. I want SO BADLY to trust and fall in love, or just in LIKE and I hate it.
I had the best conversation with Matt about that stuff, and I really wish that he had called me. He's definately not the guy most people would see me dating, but we really hit it off. And had a lot of common interests.
Chris didnt call.
Which I'm not suprised.
I ended up crying like no other on Steve, yelling at him and just in general being really drunk.
I know I say all the time that I'm happy with who I am but really... right now I just don't like who I am. at all.
I hate opening up to people because no matter what I always get hurt.
And I always open up to the wrong people. I want SO BADLY to trust and fall in love, or just in LIKE and I hate it.
I had the best conversation with Matt about that stuff, and I really wish that he had called me. He's definately not the guy most people would see me dating, but we really hit it off. And had a lot of common interests.
Chris didnt call.
Which I'm not suprised.
I ended up crying like no other on Steve, yelling at him and just in general being really drunk.
I know I say all the time that I'm happy with who I am but really... right now I just don't like who I am. at all.