I find that I have to keep in mind that I'm also gaining muscle with my exercising, so I won't necessarily lose a certain number of kilograms in a week. In fact, I'm at that plateau stage at the moment. I'm also trying to teach myself how to run, which is arduous. I tell myself it's in the name of health, but if I fuck myself up by taking it too far how healthy will that be? Baby steps.
All the sane people in my life who are trying to pull me back from the ED abyss are saying the same thing and I'm pretty much nodding and saying, "yeah, I know," but inside my insanity is pouting and going, "I will NOT stop. I want to be 135, 130, thinner, thinner!"
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