D: On not remembering
The point of a good thought, a good idea, a good concept is that it's supposed to stick in your head, isn't it? These days I'm surrounded by good ideas, but they don't so much fill my head as they do my heart, trickling into my fingers and bubbling warm in the valley just underneath my heart. I tell myself, I'll remember this one; I'll write it down tonight, but when my fingers touch the keyboard it all evaporates upwards, alcoholic and ethanoic.
A good idea may not stay; concepts are so fleeting and structural and turn-on-themselves-clever. But maybe a good idea fills, like colour or sex or magic, leaving you brimming - and without reason - until you think about it; then, ephemerally, it slips out of your fingers. There needs be some content to hold onto things, no matter how crude. A good idea is just a wind in the door.
WHICH IS A LONG WINDED WAY OF SAYING: K KEEPS FORGETTING TO WRITE SHIT DOWN, AND THEN IT'S 255AM AND SHE'S FORGOTTEN IT ALL, AND FIC, WHEN WILL YOU EVER HAPPEN AGAIN.
Quick poll of Natural Selection of Ideas, pick your favourite:
(1) Rumour mongering and myth building in Midgar (how they learnt that Rufus Shinra never cries)
(2) Nasdack!boys and their fashion senses/sense of fashion
(3) Mathematics and Mad Alice in Wonderland AU, Gundam Wing style (calculus in space, plus never keeping accurate time, plus inertia)
(4) Moist von Lipwig and perfect competition (assuming rationality)
A good idea may not stay; concepts are so fleeting and structural and turn-on-themselves-clever. But maybe a good idea fills, like colour or sex or magic, leaving you brimming - and without reason - until you think about it; then, ephemerally, it slips out of your fingers. There needs be some content to hold onto things, no matter how crude. A good idea is just a wind in the door.
WHICH IS A LONG WINDED WAY OF SAYING: K KEEPS FORGETTING TO WRITE SHIT DOWN, AND THEN IT'S 255AM AND SHE'S FORGOTTEN IT ALL, AND FIC, WHEN WILL YOU EVER HAPPEN AGAIN.
Quick poll of Natural Selection of Ideas, pick your favourite:
(1) Rumour mongering and myth building in Midgar (how they learnt that Rufus Shinra never cries)
(2) Nasdack!boys and their fashion senses/sense of fashion
(3) Mathematics and Mad Alice in Wonderland AU, Gundam Wing style (calculus in space, plus never keeping accurate time, plus inertia)
(4) Moist von Lipwig and perfect competition (assuming rationality)