Tearfall

[karalianne]

Tearfall

If I could keep away the memories,
Life might somehow be seen in my eyes.
You want too much, take too much,
And I don't know how to let you
Have what you need.
Anything I ever say will be written down,
Never to be forgotten,
All because I've never shown you my speech.

If I were to let myself cry,
Life would take me away from this place.
You all take me away,
And I cannot keep myself
Here when I want to stay.
Anytime I draw, or braid, or write,
Not for you, or me
All for Him, who haunts my dreams.

So how can I show my true self?
You all would never understand.
Not sure who I am myself;
Didn't have anyone to show me
Everything about life
You all seem to know already.

Truth is lost.
Everything matters.
All can cry.
Running away
From life.
Anything will work.
Life happens.
Learn to deal with it.

And someday,
Allow yourself
A tearfall.

copyright Janna Hoskin - 03/13/96

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This is the preface to a story I started writing when I was in University the first time. Someday I'll probably get back at it.

Regardless, it's not "just" a literary thing...