Fuck
Why do i have to feel like i care about everyone else more than they care about me?
Why dont you even have time for me anymore?
Why is everything spinning out of control?
Why don't you tell me anything anymore?
Why do i feel so gosh darn weird?
Why do i feel so alone?
Highschool is begining to suck. And school hasnt even started. We had a tear fest last night, and it helped our friendship. But other than that is seems like nothing else can possibly go right. Why can't god just give me a break? I know i shouldnt blame my sorrows on god but im sick of unhappinesss. All of a sudden its like i cant control anything anymore. Like everything is changing right before my eyes and i wish it was a movie so i could push pause. Im not ready for change yet. I was perfectly happy with my life before. I guess this is just how it goes. You win some, you lose some. But just when i think im starting to get on track again the wind throws me off course and im sick of it. Maybe in order to be happy i do need a new change. But people mean so much to me and i dont want it. Im selfish, i dont want to give up what i have. I hope that the person that sometimes i was talking about realizes this was about them. It just hurts me very bad that something really major happened in your life and you didnt even call me to tell me. And the other person would never be reading this, but he doesnt even have time for me. I feel like im very last on his prioritys list. Im so depressed. I feel like no one even understands me, or even cares the way i do. It sucks feeling like this.
love always,
Kara