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So, my birthday is coming up. 22. I'm gonna be freaking 22! I feel so old.
It isn't just the quarter life crisis...birthdays all around just suck. I mean, you can't make a big deal out of your own birthday (well some people can, but I really don't like making a fuss over myself), but if you don't make a fuss over it, well then no one else will. I have probably had 3 good birthdays in my whole life. All the others have been half assed, last minute attempts to make sure we do SOMETHING so no one has to feel bad. It is turning into that this year.
I don't want to be a whiner, or one of those people who MUST get attention. However, I'd be lying if I said I didn't want just this one day every year to be all about me. Goh that sounds awful...but it is so true! I wanna wear a crown out like all my friends did...I want the band to sing ME happy birthday and I want free shots and drinks and craziness! I would like for once to have what I give to pretty much everyone else for their birthday, which is just one day to be the star...and not because you're making yourself the star, but because your friends are.
I think I get left out of these traditions for 3 reasons...A) I don't make a fuss about my own birthday. I can't tell you how many people usually forget it... B) I'm the nice friend. No one has to make a fuss out of my birthday because lets just face it folks, am I gonna get mad if you don't? NO. C) I'm never the focus of attention, especially out with my friends. I don't usually make huge scenes or steal the show, mostly because I'm just not really like that, not cuz I care. Do you even know how many guys have told me "you're the pretty one who stands in their shadows"...shut the fuck up I am NOT one who enjoys the shadows!!! So, if I'm never the attention getting show stealer, then why should I be on my birthday?
My birthday is on Tuesday...but I'm going out of town Wednesday. I do not want a hungover car ride. I wanted my birthday to be celebrated this weekend...I've mentioned this to everyone and this was the plan all along. Then all the sudden our favorite band is playing at one of our favorite bars...and bam! not one more mention of my birthday. I really have no clue if we're still celebrating it this weekend. I brought it up once...someone goes "OMG this weekend is Contraband!" and I go "and my birthday!"...and nope, no happiness, excitement or even a statement after I said that.
My roomate and best friend both have HUGE crushes on the guys in this band. This is a HUGE event. They must be the stars... SO it cannot be my birthday. Friday I'm going to Tuscaloosa. So tell me friends, when will I get a celebration? I guarantee you, I will not. Because I do not make a fuss over myself and I never have.
I love my friends, I really do, and I'd hate for this entry to make it sound like they're selfish or bad friends. They aren't, and they seriously do so much for me. My life would be hell without them! I think its just that they are so excited about this band playing that they want it to be the most exciting thing happening this weekend. Does that make sense? And while I love this band, I'm not crushing on anyone in it so really, they know it isn't really about me. I hate it how girl's minds get so consumed with guys they forget everything else, but can I blame them? It happens to the best of the best friends. I'm sure I've done it too.
SO ANYWAYS.....
Other than typical b'day drama, life is good. I moved into a house with my friend Jana and I love it! Jana is amazing and we've become great friends. My friend KayLi lives down the street. We all have so much fun.
Other than that, I really miss all my Montevallo friends. Its so crazy how time flies...I feel like just yesterday I was in Montevallo with everyone! I'm also missing some Tuscaloosa friends, and I'm starting to feel bad about not visiting anyone. I'm the worst at keeping in touch...
If anyone comes into Bham soon, please call me!
Have a great turkey day everyone!
It isn't just the quarter life crisis...birthdays all around just suck. I mean, you can't make a big deal out of your own birthday (well some people can, but I really don't like making a fuss over myself), but if you don't make a fuss over it, well then no one else will. I have probably had 3 good birthdays in my whole life. All the others have been half assed, last minute attempts to make sure we do SOMETHING so no one has to feel bad. It is turning into that this year.
I don't want to be a whiner, or one of those people who MUST get attention. However, I'd be lying if I said I didn't want just this one day every year to be all about me. Goh that sounds awful...but it is so true! I wanna wear a crown out like all my friends did...I want the band to sing ME happy birthday and I want free shots and drinks and craziness! I would like for once to have what I give to pretty much everyone else for their birthday, which is just one day to be the star...and not because you're making yourself the star, but because your friends are.
I think I get left out of these traditions for 3 reasons...A) I don't make a fuss about my own birthday. I can't tell you how many people usually forget it... B) I'm the nice friend. No one has to make a fuss out of my birthday because lets just face it folks, am I gonna get mad if you don't? NO. C) I'm never the focus of attention, especially out with my friends. I don't usually make huge scenes or steal the show, mostly because I'm just not really like that, not cuz I care. Do you even know how many guys have told me "you're the pretty one who stands in their shadows"...shut the fuck up I am NOT one who enjoys the shadows!!! So, if I'm never the attention getting show stealer, then why should I be on my birthday?
My birthday is on Tuesday...but I'm going out of town Wednesday. I do not want a hungover car ride. I wanted my birthday to be celebrated this weekend...I've mentioned this to everyone and this was the plan all along. Then all the sudden our favorite band is playing at one of our favorite bars...and bam! not one more mention of my birthday. I really have no clue if we're still celebrating it this weekend. I brought it up once...someone goes "OMG this weekend is Contraband!" and I go "and my birthday!"...and nope, no happiness, excitement or even a statement after I said that.
My roomate and best friend both have HUGE crushes on the guys in this band. This is a HUGE event. They must be the stars... SO it cannot be my birthday. Friday I'm going to Tuscaloosa. So tell me friends, when will I get a celebration? I guarantee you, I will not. Because I do not make a fuss over myself and I never have.
I love my friends, I really do, and I'd hate for this entry to make it sound like they're selfish or bad friends. They aren't, and they seriously do so much for me. My life would be hell without them! I think its just that they are so excited about this band playing that they want it to be the most exciting thing happening this weekend. Does that make sense? And while I love this band, I'm not crushing on anyone in it so really, they know it isn't really about me. I hate it how girl's minds get so consumed with guys they forget everything else, but can I blame them? It happens to the best of the best friends. I'm sure I've done it too.
SO ANYWAYS.....
Other than typical b'day drama, life is good. I moved into a house with my friend Jana and I love it! Jana is amazing and we've become great friends. My friend KayLi lives down the street. We all have so much fun.
Other than that, I really miss all my Montevallo friends. Its so crazy how time flies...I feel like just yesterday I was in Montevallo with everyone! I'm also missing some Tuscaloosa friends, and I'm starting to feel bad about not visiting anyone. I'm the worst at keeping in touch...
If anyone comes into Bham soon, please call me!
Have a great turkey day everyone!