I hate boys
Okay, so I don't really hate boys. I just hate one boy...except I don't really hate him at all. He just doesn't like me and I have to finally face the fact that he and I are over. We broke up like 3 weeks ago and at the time I was fine. I cried a little and was upset at first but I got over it really fast. And I kept thinking...okay this is going to hit me and it is gonna hurt like hell. So, I think it has been hitting me the past couple of days. It makes my stomach hurt to think about it, but I know that he and I don't need to be together and we aren't together for a reason. He hasn't called me since we broke up, which totally reassures me that nope, he doesn't miss me. He sure got over it fast...this is obvious...and it makes the past 6 months of my life seem like a waste. I drove back and forth from Tuscaloosa to see him...I spent literally hundreds of dollars doing this...and now that I'm finally close to him, all that money has gone down the drain. I also keep thinking of all the stupid things I did to make this happen. It's my fault he broke up with me and I keep thinking of the things I should have done differently. This sucks. I hate boys.