karah is sick of this.
okay so i havent been on in a while..there is a reason for that..
welll you see i have been getting in a LOT of trouble lately with the rents.
i dont want to say everything but lets just say i was on the verge of going to a juvinile detention center the other night..
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i have hit rock bottom.i am at the point at which no one really wants to be around me because all i do is screw up.
as you all may know i broke up wiht my boyfriend and since then i have been spireling downwards.you may think that i would be like this if he broke up with me but i am fine with it..i am not sad or anything..but just after this happened i have been getting in a lot of trouble.idk.whatev.
i have gotton to the point that my own family members dont want me living in the house...people dont want to talk to me because i am a bitch..yes i know i am but still..my friends should stick by me during my hard times and it seems like i only have one faithfully and truly by my side.and that is megan..i thank God each day that he has given her to me.i dont know what i would do with out her.honestly i feel bad because i go to her with all my problems and tears and i have only seen her cry once and that is why britt moved.haha.but anyways.i need someone else to be there for me and reassure me things will get better.megans a great friend but she isnt so great why i am bawling my eyes out.hahah.i need someone who will come over and just sit in my room with me until i am better.idk what i am going to doo...
this is goign to be so hard this year. michael is going over to germany.he is my brother and i dont know what i would do if i didnt have him to talk to each week.yeah yeah yeah it seems like i hate his guts and shit but when it comes down to it...i love him.
my mom was talking to me earlier in the week and she said that a lot of people put their loved ones ahead of them.and i need to take a good look at myself.i am selfish,bitchy,and an outright jerk.i dont put others first.there is something deep down wrong with me and i need to get things straightened out.my life is going down and i need to bring it up.and i need help doing so.
i dont ask for much..and when i do...it seems like a lot.
idk.
i just need some time i guess.
life is tough at the moment.
btw-school starts in exactly a week and i am screwed.
and the following week or something.
i get my wisdom teeth out.
i just want to die.
haha.
lasjdflkjdf i have to work tomorrow.
come visit me.
:]
well there is one thing to look forward to...sleep!
welll you see i have been getting in a LOT of trouble lately with the rents.
i dont want to say everything but lets just say i was on the verge of going to a juvinile detention center the other night..
:[
i have hit rock bottom.i am at the point at which no one really wants to be around me because all i do is screw up.
as you all may know i broke up wiht my boyfriend and since then i have been spireling downwards.you may think that i would be like this if he broke up with me but i am fine with it..i am not sad or anything..but just after this happened i have been getting in a lot of trouble.idk.whatev.
i have gotton to the point that my own family members dont want me living in the house...people dont want to talk to me because i am a bitch..yes i know i am but still..my friends should stick by me during my hard times and it seems like i only have one faithfully and truly by my side.and that is megan..i thank God each day that he has given her to me.i dont know what i would do with out her.honestly i feel bad because i go to her with all my problems and tears and i have only seen her cry once and that is why britt moved.haha.but anyways.i need someone else to be there for me and reassure me things will get better.megans a great friend but she isnt so great why i am bawling my eyes out.hahah.i need someone who will come over and just sit in my room with me until i am better.idk what i am going to doo...
this is goign to be so hard this year. michael is going over to germany.he is my brother and i dont know what i would do if i didnt have him to talk to each week.yeah yeah yeah it seems like i hate his guts and shit but when it comes down to it...i love him.
my mom was talking to me earlier in the week and she said that a lot of people put their loved ones ahead of them.and i need to take a good look at myself.i am selfish,bitchy,and an outright jerk.i dont put others first.there is something deep down wrong with me and i need to get things straightened out.my life is going down and i need to bring it up.and i need help doing so.
i dont ask for much..and when i do...it seems like a lot.
idk.
i just need some time i guess.
life is tough at the moment.
btw-school starts in exactly a week and i am screwed.
and the following week or something.
i get my wisdom teeth out.
i just want to die.
haha.
lasjdflkjdf i have to work tomorrow.
come visit me.
:]
well there is one thing to look forward to...sleep!