Old and New
Wow, everyone's asleep, I'm bored and looking through some old LJ posts and seeing who still gets on this thing. Hey it's a blizzard outside and nothing better to do except watch Bad Girls Club. *shahhaha*
Anyways, since I last got on this thing, I am still a loser without a college degree, but looking for a graphic design job in the Wabash, Indiana area. Not much has popped up so far, so I'm still working at good old Marsh, going on five years, hoping that something will get me out of that place. I am getting married this fall, which I am shocked that someone has put up with me for this long and wants to forever. I have always sucked at relationships. I cheated, I was a baby when it came to break-ups, I thought I was in love with all of my boyfriends but Andy is luckily my other half. He's been through a lot of the same shit I have and although we have opposite personalities and come from a completely different place, we fit together pretty damn well. Plus we have a beautiful almost two year old daughter together, who was a total accident, but has given me the most joy and love I have ever experienced. When I was single and had time to think about it, I wasn't sure I ever wanted kids or marriage. I wanted to go off to a bigger city, find a job, and live the single life. My how things have turned out differently.
I don't really have many friends anymore. Actually, not really any. I have maybe one close girlfriend I can confide in and she's now in a relationship so I don't hear from her as much anymore. Man I am pathetic. One of my closest friends is my sister, finally. Our relationship hasn't been the closest since we lived together, but now that I am back in Walbatucky, we're finally getting on the same page. The other people Andy and I developed friendships with in Muncie have all moved to various areas of the Midwest and we see them when we get the occasional babysitter. Our 4-5 nights a week of drinking and bar fanatics has turned into a rare happening. I hang out with my mom a lot. Really my life is pretty boring.
Sometimes I miss the fun, energetic Kara that I used to be, but I've accepted the role of part-time working mom & future wife. I'm sad that I've lost touch with people I thought would be "friends 4 lyfe." I miss ex-boyfriends that became great friends and lack of responsibilities, but I am so happy that I get to share all these things with my daughter in the future..all of my life experiences and my mistakes that I want her to avoid.
So that's basically me right now, other than the fact that I screwed up in college financially and had a few bad raps on my credit that I FINALLY have eliminated. So my credit will be clean once those payments are reported, which makes me super excited. That means we'll be on the road to buying a house, hopefully by the time I am 30. Our cars are doing okay. The little red Cavalier is still truckin'. The only problem with it is a squeaky belt which has been squeaking since 2003, so not too concerned and we got a Blazer this past summer which has really helped with the space/kid/two work vehicle problem.
Maybe more later. Leave comments if anyone is still around LJ.
Anyways, since I last got on this thing, I am still a loser without a college degree, but looking for a graphic design job in the Wabash, Indiana area. Not much has popped up so far, so I'm still working at good old Marsh, going on five years, hoping that something will get me out of that place. I am getting married this fall, which I am shocked that someone has put up with me for this long and wants to forever. I have always sucked at relationships. I cheated, I was a baby when it came to break-ups, I thought I was in love with all of my boyfriends but Andy is luckily my other half. He's been through a lot of the same shit I have and although we have opposite personalities and come from a completely different place, we fit together pretty damn well. Plus we have a beautiful almost two year old daughter together, who was a total accident, but has given me the most joy and love I have ever experienced. When I was single and had time to think about it, I wasn't sure I ever wanted kids or marriage. I wanted to go off to a bigger city, find a job, and live the single life. My how things have turned out differently.
I don't really have many friends anymore. Actually, not really any. I have maybe one close girlfriend I can confide in and she's now in a relationship so I don't hear from her as much anymore. Man I am pathetic. One of my closest friends is my sister, finally. Our relationship hasn't been the closest since we lived together, but now that I am back in Walbatucky, we're finally getting on the same page. The other people Andy and I developed friendships with in Muncie have all moved to various areas of the Midwest and we see them when we get the occasional babysitter. Our 4-5 nights a week of drinking and bar fanatics has turned into a rare happening. I hang out with my mom a lot. Really my life is pretty boring.
Sometimes I miss the fun, energetic Kara that I used to be, but I've accepted the role of part-time working mom & future wife. I'm sad that I've lost touch with people I thought would be "friends 4 lyfe." I miss ex-boyfriends that became great friends and lack of responsibilities, but I am so happy that I get to share all these things with my daughter in the future..all of my life experiences and my mistakes that I want her to avoid.
So that's basically me right now, other than the fact that I screwed up in college financially and had a few bad raps on my credit that I FINALLY have eliminated. So my credit will be clean once those payments are reported, which makes me super excited. That means we'll be on the road to buying a house, hopefully by the time I am 30. Our cars are doing okay. The little red Cavalier is still truckin'. The only problem with it is a squeaky belt which has been squeaking since 2003, so not too concerned and we got a Blazer this past summer which has really helped with the space/kid/two work vehicle problem.
Maybe more later. Leave comments if anyone is still around LJ.