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[kara_clearwater]

I'm so glad to be out of the hospital wing. It's better to sit here in my room, on my bed, and think, than it is to be in the hospital wing with everyone. It's better to be in a place where I feel comfortable. Or at least as comfortable as I've been in the last few days

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[zachmalcolmlnx]

Hey, I'll talk to you. What's wrong?

[kara_clearwater]

everything... just everything. Zach, did you know Folkor doesn't remember ANYTHING? not even people, or places, or just, anything at all?

[zachmalcolmlnx]

No... that's terrible!

[kara_clearwater]

*wails* I know! And I know everyone keeps saying its not entirely my fault, but I feel so GUILTY! And I can't seem to stop from feeling like such a jerk who hexes people for the fun of it!

[zachmalcolmlnx]

I don't know what happened, but even if it was your fault, they'll put him right. He'll probably be articulating about what he had for breakfast on his fourth birthday in no time.

[kara_clearwater]

I know, I know he'll be all right!

But what's bothering me is the fact that I DID IT in the first place! I did something wrong, and people got hurt because of me!

[zachmalcolmlnx]

Everyone makes mistakes! And I doubt he would call that being hurt anyway...

[kara_clearwater]

I don't care what THEY think! I need to figure out what I think!

*sighs* Sorry... I know I promised not to blow up at anyone anymore. I'm just so... confused.

[zachmalcolmlnx]

Confused about what? I don't know what happened, so I don't know what everyone's talking about.

[kara_clearwater]

*sighs* the short version is this...
Folkor was down by the lake, and Nott approached him and started verbally attacking him. I got involved, and sooner or later we were throwing curses at each other. By the time Professor Sprout stopped us, we were all a mess.

What I'm confused about is Why did I get involved? What made me react the way I did? WHat kind of person gets herself into that sort of situation?

Maybe this is something I need to answer myself...

[zachmalcolmlnx]

I don't see what's confusing about it. You were trying to help, and it was a noble thing to do.

[kara_clearwater]

But that's the problem... what's so noble about it? What's so noble about throwing curses and hexes back and forth with the intent to hurt someone?

How do I justify what I did? To myself, if no one else?

[zachmalcolmlnx]

You were defending your friend. Do you think soldiers fall into depression every time they kill one of the enemy? You did what was right.

[kara_clearwater]

You sound so confident... can the answer really be that simple? Things are so black and white... things are so messed up.

Plus, now I feel even more guilty for hating Nott when he and Caelan are, well, getting along better... I feel like i'm betraying my best friend

[zachmalcolmlnx]

It sounds pretty black and white to me... Folkor was threatened and you defended him, and it really has nothing to do with the fact that it was Nott you were fighting.

[kara_clearwater]

You make things sound so simple. I just wonder if there was a better way I could have handled the situation... WITHOUT wands