that old friend is back
for some reason the last couple of years the holidays have just depressed me to no end and I don't know why. I am not homeless, I have a roof over my head, 3 meals a day and am able for the most part do what I wish when I wish. But yet I still get depressed every damn night no matter how good the day was or anything. Its really getting on my last nerve driving me even further down the dark tunnel. I have a very awesome loved ones in my life who mean the world to me. I just dont know what my fucking problem is anymore. I just want to coil up in a hole till the new year.