Sometimes I wonder.
I've been having dreams about Michael lately. I have no clue what they mean (considering I am a firm believer about dreams having a meaning). I sent him an email and told him about it and shit like that. I'm gonna try to call him sometime soon, just to make sure he's okay and everything. It made me realize that I miss him, and now I'm all confused. 'Cause I'm an idiot.
Fuck my emotions. Really. :(
So I'm starting to feel better. Other than the fact that my head ache still won't go away. I basically give up about it. Maybe I have a tumor on my brain or something. Worst case first, I mean.
I have a lot on my mind right now. I've been thinking about Michael a lot, and now after reading my friends' page, now I'm thinking about another person too. What the fuck is wrong with me? Seriously? Maybe I should just put my priorities first?
You may think women are confusing? Yeah, well. You are too at times. You say you feel used, but what have I done to make it so? I'm in Iraq, and there's not much I can do here. So why do you feel like you're just being used? How can I even do that from here? So seriously, what is your problem? I can't exactly decipher all the shit you type in your journal. So you kind of have to help me out here.
What exactly am I doing to make you feel this way? If it's because I don't call you,; find a new excuse. I don't even call my parents or my sister. If it's because I don't mail you anything, then that's because I don't have the time. What else do you want from me?
Yes, I like you. We have come to a conclusion about that, remember? I may not act on it, but that's because I'm very insecure about myself, I am deployed, and I don't really know where our lives are going to take us. I am not using you for anything.
So.. why?
Well, I had to get that off my chest it seems. Anyhow, I'm gonna go. My soldier is waiting for the computer. Peace, love, and chicken grease.
Fuck my emotions. Really. :(
So I'm starting to feel better. Other than the fact that my head ache still won't go away. I basically give up about it. Maybe I have a tumor on my brain or something. Worst case first, I mean.
I have a lot on my mind right now. I've been thinking about Michael a lot, and now after reading my friends' page, now I'm thinking about another person too. What the fuck is wrong with me? Seriously? Maybe I should just put my priorities first?
You may think women are confusing? Yeah, well. You are too at times. You say you feel used, but what have I done to make it so? I'm in Iraq, and there's not much I can do here. So why do you feel like you're just being used? How can I even do that from here? So seriously, what is your problem? I can't exactly decipher all the shit you type in your journal. So you kind of have to help me out here.
What exactly am I doing to make you feel this way? If it's because I don't call you,; find a new excuse. I don't even call my parents or my sister. If it's because I don't mail you anything, then that's because I don't have the time. What else do you want from me?
Yes, I like you. We have come to a conclusion about that, remember? I may not act on it, but that's because I'm very insecure about myself, I am deployed, and I don't really know where our lives are going to take us. I am not using you for anything.
So.. why?
Well, I had to get that off my chest it seems. Anyhow, I'm gonna go. My soldier is waiting for the computer. Peace, love, and chicken grease.