xmas wrap up
my mom went all out this year.
highlights of the gifts
guitar hero 3
tv stand
hella new jeans
bad ass sports book
pirates 3
and the low lights....
my dad
for those who know me very well, i dont talk about my dad too much. its a really sensetive subject for me. but this is a time and a place for me where i just need to vent about this shit and hopefully make myself feel better.
my dad is mentally ill
very, mentally ill
its soo bad that he doesnt even recognize or realize he has a problem. i go to his apartment today to give him is gift and we walk into a dark, hot apartment. the temperature is cranked up and he seriously has 2 lights on with the blinds closed. what is even weirder is that he is wearing sunglasses inside his dark apartment.
my dad has this "disease" in his eyes. everyone in my family things its psycho-somatic. but my dad has this "disease" where his eye just hurts all the time. now, his doctors havent found any evidence of "disease" in his eye. but the reason for him wearing sunglasses inside was to prevent from going blind. im dead serious. if my dad doesnt have some sort of protection for his eyes from the light, then he says that because of the pain, he will go blind.
but gettin back to my story. we walk in where he has his bed in the family room. weird, yes, but im used to it. we get in there, chat for a while, he shows mike and kandice and me his new things. then my borther see that there is a letter from the IRS for my dad. basically what it says is that my dad owes the IRS $92,000. this is scary for me. its bad because my dad thinks the IRS is wrong, and should pay him $50,000. and second, hes so in his own reality so bad, that because he doesnt thing he did anything wrong, that the IRS has no reason to take him away. usually if the IRS comes calling, you owe them money and its not good. this scares the shit out of my and my brother. i would hate to see my dad in prison.
shit with him right now isnt the best and i want it to get better. but he needs to make the effort. he refuses to do so. i want to have a normal dad, thats all i want. i would trade all the shit i got for xmas this year to have a normal father.....
thats all i want now.
highlights of the gifts
guitar hero 3
tv stand
hella new jeans
bad ass sports book
pirates 3
and the low lights....
my dad
for those who know me very well, i dont talk about my dad too much. its a really sensetive subject for me. but this is a time and a place for me where i just need to vent about this shit and hopefully make myself feel better.
my dad is mentally ill
very, mentally ill
its soo bad that he doesnt even recognize or realize he has a problem. i go to his apartment today to give him is gift and we walk into a dark, hot apartment. the temperature is cranked up and he seriously has 2 lights on with the blinds closed. what is even weirder is that he is wearing sunglasses inside his dark apartment.
my dad has this "disease" in his eyes. everyone in my family things its psycho-somatic. but my dad has this "disease" where his eye just hurts all the time. now, his doctors havent found any evidence of "disease" in his eye. but the reason for him wearing sunglasses inside was to prevent from going blind. im dead serious. if my dad doesnt have some sort of protection for his eyes from the light, then he says that because of the pain, he will go blind.
but gettin back to my story. we walk in where he has his bed in the family room. weird, yes, but im used to it. we get in there, chat for a while, he shows mike and kandice and me his new things. then my borther see that there is a letter from the IRS for my dad. basically what it says is that my dad owes the IRS $92,000. this is scary for me. its bad because my dad thinks the IRS is wrong, and should pay him $50,000. and second, hes so in his own reality so bad, that because he doesnt thing he did anything wrong, that the IRS has no reason to take him away. usually if the IRS comes calling, you owe them money and its not good. this scares the shit out of my and my brother. i would hate to see my dad in prison.
shit with him right now isnt the best and i want it to get better. but he needs to make the effort. he refuses to do so. i want to have a normal dad, thats all i want. i would trade all the shit i got for xmas this year to have a normal father.....
thats all i want now.