2 girls
The girl I want I can't have, and the girl I don't want I can't get away from. Sure I can up and say "sorry I just want to be friends" but I'd break her heart. She broke up her relationship with another guy to be with me. I'd be a scumbag to turn around and dump her. I'm going to treat her as best I can, as if she was the girl I really wanted. I will never love her though.
She asked if I would go to her prom. I'm a college junior, I have no business going to a high school prom, and I pretty much told her that. Besides, her prom has a max age limit of 20, and I'm 24. I'm kinda big on the whole honor thing though and I'm not about to spend an entire night lying to everyone about my age, which I also told her. Then she started getting upset and crying, and at that exact moment, my phone battery ran out of juice. She seemed much better today though. I offered to take her out to dinner tomorrow night, which is actually convenient to me since my mom will be away on a Red Cross meeting. My sister will have to fend for herself, but she's 18, she can handle it.
Speaking of phones though, I went by batteries plus and had them order me a new one. They said it would arrive in a couple of days. However, that will mean I won't have an excuse to keep from talking to her at night.
I wonder... am I a bad person for continuing a relationship where I know love will never be a factor? I'm not saying that don't like her at all, but she's immature, annoying, borderline stalker. At the same time though, so far she has treated me better than any actual girlfriend I've ever had. As long as she continues to treat me right, I'll treat her right and spare her a broken heart. I can use this for training later in life. I plan on marrying once, for the rest of my life. There will be points, I'm sure, that my wife will get on my nerves and drive me nuts, but I will want to stay with her.
I'm just rationalizing though, aren't I? Well, at least these emotions are better than the emotions of being lonely.
She asked if I would go to her prom. I'm a college junior, I have no business going to a high school prom, and I pretty much told her that. Besides, her prom has a max age limit of 20, and I'm 24. I'm kinda big on the whole honor thing though and I'm not about to spend an entire night lying to everyone about my age, which I also told her. Then she started getting upset and crying, and at that exact moment, my phone battery ran out of juice. She seemed much better today though. I offered to take her out to dinner tomorrow night, which is actually convenient to me since my mom will be away on a Red Cross meeting. My sister will have to fend for herself, but she's 18, she can handle it.
Speaking of phones though, I went by batteries plus and had them order me a new one. They said it would arrive in a couple of days. However, that will mean I won't have an excuse to keep from talking to her at night.
I wonder... am I a bad person for continuing a relationship where I know love will never be a factor? I'm not saying that don't like her at all, but she's immature, annoying, borderline stalker. At the same time though, so far she has treated me better than any actual girlfriend I've ever had. As long as she continues to treat me right, I'll treat her right and spare her a broken heart. I can use this for training later in life. I plan on marrying once, for the rest of my life. There will be points, I'm sure, that my wife will get on my nerves and drive me nuts, but I will want to stay with her.
I'm just rationalizing though, aren't I? Well, at least these emotions are better than the emotions of being lonely.