wake up
you fucking disappoint me......maybe you're better off this way.
oh, these last few days have been absolutely fabulous, trying to lay off a bit on the drinking, getting more hours at the dental office, and being way less hurt and depressed about mom stuff. i've been feeling like shit cause of old friends, so many people i thought were cool, but totally don't call me anymore.. but i guess i'm too "negative". i don't know, considering what's going on in my life right now i think i've been pretty damn optimistic.. i know i need to get over it, there are way more important things than that stupid bullshit, seeing as how my mother has a 20% chance (that's about five years) of living through her chemo, plus another surgery..... i wouldn't need help at all from my FRIENDS...i actually get out of bed and be productive, try to have fun, keep in touch with my friends and spend time with my boyfriend, as MUCH time as possible with my mom, work to make money to feed myself, and take care of my animals and my house. but you know, that's nothing, i'm sure non of my friends my age have to deal with that, so they couldn't possibly understand.
i didn't mean for this post to get so bitter, but really, i want to have a good summer, put all bullshit aside and see my friends, because as much as i've learned to take care of myself, i still need love and support.
oh, these last few days have been absolutely fabulous, trying to lay off a bit on the drinking, getting more hours at the dental office, and being way less hurt and depressed about mom stuff. i've been feeling like shit cause of old friends, so many people i thought were cool, but totally don't call me anymore.. but i guess i'm too "negative". i don't know, considering what's going on in my life right now i think i've been pretty damn optimistic.. i know i need to get over it, there are way more important things than that stupid bullshit, seeing as how my mother has a 20% chance (that's about five years) of living through her chemo, plus another surgery..... i wouldn't need help at all from my FRIENDS...i actually get out of bed and be productive, try to have fun, keep in touch with my friends and spend time with my boyfriend, as MUCH time as possible with my mom, work to make money to feed myself, and take care of my animals and my house. but you know, that's nothing, i'm sure non of my friends my age have to deal with that, so they couldn't possibly understand.
i didn't mean for this post to get so bitter, but really, i want to have a good summer, put all bullshit aside and see my friends, because as much as i've learned to take care of myself, i still need love and support.