Maybe it's me...
So I'm wondering if maybe I'm the reason I can't seem to find a decent guy to date. Every one that I seem to meet down here never works out, and I'm thinking that it might be me, and not them.
Lets start with the younger guy that I met when I first got here... That didn't last long. Maybe it's because I met him in a bar? Maybe it's because he's in the air force and those guys never seem to be serious about anyone? We kind of just stopped talking, and I think he got back together with his ex. I don't know... we don't talk anymore. And I'm not really sure what happened or how it ended. It's not like I'm upset about it, but for a bit he seemed really into me.
Then there's the guy I met at Crab Island. He hung out a lot, I spent a lot of time with him at his house. His idea of a booty call was me coming over to snuggle. One night we stayed up all night talking. I went out with him and his friends a few times. But he was one of those "independent" types. Which is fine, I didn't care, but he only wanted to hang out after like, midnight. Which screams booty call. But when I would bring it up, he'd have all these excuses. I finally gave up when he bailed on me like, 3 times. Now he still tells me that he misses me, and blah blah blah.
Then there's the Helicopter Pilot. He moved back to AZ... and I don't know if we would have actually dated, because he got all weird about going out and being able to flirt with other girls. Again, I don't really care, and I'm not really the jealous type, but... I think I deserve to have someone who wants to go out WITH me, and not just go out to boost up his ego. He was great when it was just us... and I still talk to him, but I really don't see anything happening with that either.
Just recently, I met a guy who is from Alabama. He's super sweet, kept saying sweet things like me being dazzling, that I'm beautiful, and he'd swim across freezing cold bays to get a chance to date me... cheesy things like that. It was a little overwhelming, to be honest, and I don't really know what to make of it. When I mentioned that if I couldn't find a job, I'd be moving back to Oregon, he actually told me that I could go live with him in Oklahoma while he did his officer training. That made me a little uncomfortable, as I've only met him once, and I'm really not sure if a relationship would even work between us, seeing as how he's Southern, religious, and republican. I don't care about politics... you can like who you like, and vote for whoever the hell you want to (and I told him I had 2 rules... no talking about politics, or religion), but I don't know if it really matters to him. But right now he's up in Southern Alabama hunting, and while he DOES have cell phone reception, he can only get and send texts outside their little cabin thing. So it means hours and hours and hours without a response. Don't get me wrong... I really don't care. But I've been wanting to tell him about the interview I had yesterday, and the stuff I had to do today for it, and while he said he wanted to hear about it, he never really took the time to actually listen. Or ask about it. Or really have a conversation at all.
And then there's a guy from back home. I hung out with him Saturday while I was home in Eugene. He's been into me for a while, and I've gone out with him before, and still talk to him, and such. But he's 3000 miles away. I could see myself dating him if I was still living there, but I'm not. And while I know long distance relationships CAN work, I can't see myself being happy in one. There's also the awkward bit about how I live with his cousin, who wasn't particularly happy to find out that I was hanging out with his cousins (he thought it was weird). Yes, he knows I've gone out with his cousin before, but I can see how it would be weird.
Maybe I'd be better off adopting a few more cats and just settling down into my role as a cat-lady.
Lets start with the younger guy that I met when I first got here... That didn't last long. Maybe it's because I met him in a bar? Maybe it's because he's in the air force and those guys never seem to be serious about anyone? We kind of just stopped talking, and I think he got back together with his ex. I don't know... we don't talk anymore. And I'm not really sure what happened or how it ended. It's not like I'm upset about it, but for a bit he seemed really into me.
Then there's the guy I met at Crab Island. He hung out a lot, I spent a lot of time with him at his house. His idea of a booty call was me coming over to snuggle. One night we stayed up all night talking. I went out with him and his friends a few times. But he was one of those "independent" types. Which is fine, I didn't care, but he only wanted to hang out after like, midnight. Which screams booty call. But when I would bring it up, he'd have all these excuses. I finally gave up when he bailed on me like, 3 times. Now he still tells me that he misses me, and blah blah blah.
Then there's the Helicopter Pilot. He moved back to AZ... and I don't know if we would have actually dated, because he got all weird about going out and being able to flirt with other girls. Again, I don't really care, and I'm not really the jealous type, but... I think I deserve to have someone who wants to go out WITH me, and not just go out to boost up his ego. He was great when it was just us... and I still talk to him, but I really don't see anything happening with that either.
Just recently, I met a guy who is from Alabama. He's super sweet, kept saying sweet things like me being dazzling, that I'm beautiful, and he'd swim across freezing cold bays to get a chance to date me... cheesy things like that. It was a little overwhelming, to be honest, and I don't really know what to make of it. When I mentioned that if I couldn't find a job, I'd be moving back to Oregon, he actually told me that I could go live with him in Oklahoma while he did his officer training. That made me a little uncomfortable, as I've only met him once, and I'm really not sure if a relationship would even work between us, seeing as how he's Southern, religious, and republican. I don't care about politics... you can like who you like, and vote for whoever the hell you want to (and I told him I had 2 rules... no talking about politics, or religion), but I don't know if it really matters to him. But right now he's up in Southern Alabama hunting, and while he DOES have cell phone reception, he can only get and send texts outside their little cabin thing. So it means hours and hours and hours without a response. Don't get me wrong... I really don't care. But I've been wanting to tell him about the interview I had yesterday, and the stuff I had to do today for it, and while he said he wanted to hear about it, he never really took the time to actually listen. Or ask about it. Or really have a conversation at all.
And then there's a guy from back home. I hung out with him Saturday while I was home in Eugene. He's been into me for a while, and I've gone out with him before, and still talk to him, and such. But he's 3000 miles away. I could see myself dating him if I was still living there, but I'm not. And while I know long distance relationships CAN work, I can't see myself being happy in one. There's also the awkward bit about how I live with his cousin, who wasn't particularly happy to find out that I was hanging out with his cousins (he thought it was weird). Yes, he knows I've gone out with his cousin before, but I can see how it would be weird.
Maybe I'd be better off adopting a few more cats and just settling down into my role as a cat-lady.