Long lost....
So its been a while, i have went threw some kinda interesting shit.... my life yet again is getting bent in every god damn direction. More stuff over my kids, I have two beautiful girls these days, I still dont get to see them as often as i would like, but its getting better. i get to see them at least once a week these days... back in the day i was lucky if i could see my daughter every other week let alone the fact that it was more then once a month... Im working on getting my act together in the big time way... im trying to stop with the dumb shit... i kinda lost track of what life was for a short while... and i have realized that i have lost a lot of my friends. I can go and sit with a group of 5 people and when i look at them i realize none of them care, they all used to say they did, they used to ask how i was doing, they used to... be friends... it kinda hurts, but i am starting to kind of turn back to the way i used to be.. where i dont care to much, you like me, good, you dont, just as good thats just one less person that i have to worry about... and the worse part is that i know that its no ones fault, and that im probably blaming people for it that are innocent... i just... you can tell when you are alone.. ya know.. every one thinks oh dont worry bout evan he has all these friends... no i have hella people that want to party, or want me to buy them booze cuz they cant... well... i sat and thought about it... i dont know who really is a friend any more, i mean, i go to places where i used to have a bunch of friends and now they look at me like im some sort of alien. i dont know what happend, but all i know is that some how its either my fault... or its no body elses.. if ya get the drift... but i can guarentee that none of you want to read this... so... yeah... sorry i took up space on your friends....