He is cancer to me as I am cancer to him. Got it? Good.
oh man, talk about old flames coming back into your life. One? Two? Three? Hold your horses! Where is the variety? blah blah blah boring.
Yeah, kids. Let's not go spreading rumors... I meant Scott is a cancer to me. I wont take it back, i believe it is true. If you knew me at all and where I stand now, you would realize that I do not hate him. I simply want nothing to do with him. Whenever we are together we bring out the worst in each other. Me too. Not just him. I honestly did love him. There is no way I would have endured as much as I did if I did not. Now, how could I possibly wish him ill if he means so much to me? Clearly I still care deeply for him. But whatever concern, whatever care, whatever thought I could possibly have for him is now cut out and disposed of in the proper waste bucket. Do I love him now? Not after what I have seen.
On a lighter note. Things at work are going good. New spiffy office. I am still working on my painting. I am also yet to bring in photographs. I should do that.
The date was a bust. The poor kid didn't even get to first base before I called the game. Nice guy, but you know me. I am looking for the best. And why not? Don't I deserve it? Yes I do and now I realize that and embrace it. Let's have fun along the way, right?
Tattoo design is in near completion...now the money part... hrmmm. I want a white orchid on the back base of my neck outlined in a deep brown so it looks like hennah. I want light lavender detailing and on either main base pettle the words :Carpe Diem: in old computer/typewriter font. (Seize the Day) OH yeah, I went there...Latin.
Yeah, kids. Let's not go spreading rumors... I meant Scott is a cancer to me. I wont take it back, i believe it is true. If you knew me at all and where I stand now, you would realize that I do not hate him. I simply want nothing to do with him. Whenever we are together we bring out the worst in each other. Me too. Not just him. I honestly did love him. There is no way I would have endured as much as I did if I did not. Now, how could I possibly wish him ill if he means so much to me? Clearly I still care deeply for him. But whatever concern, whatever care, whatever thought I could possibly have for him is now cut out and disposed of in the proper waste bucket. Do I love him now? Not after what I have seen.
On a lighter note. Things at work are going good. New spiffy office. I am still working on my painting. I am also yet to bring in photographs. I should do that.
The date was a bust. The poor kid didn't even get to first base before I called the game. Nice guy, but you know me. I am looking for the best. And why not? Don't I deserve it? Yes I do and now I realize that and embrace it. Let's have fun along the way, right?
Tattoo design is in near completion...now the money part... hrmmm. I want a white orchid on the back base of my neck outlined in a deep brown so it looks like hennah. I want light lavender detailing and on either main base pettle the words :Carpe Diem: in old computer/typewriter font. (Seize the Day) OH yeah, I went there...Latin.