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[kaosxs]

i wasn't nervous...

i just couldn't look into your eyes

why?

because i'm protecting myself

because i was not giving 100%

because i'm scared shitless-------

"defense mechanism"?

maybe

i'm still somehow ditached
many of my actions were very cold
and i wish it wouldn't have been that way...

because i love to have you that close

but i guess i was just watching out for myself

and still

i feel vulnerable

extremely vulnerable...