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[kaosxs]

so...

what have i become??

that which i hated most???

that which enfuriates me just by the sounds of it???

there's just so many thoughts that contradict each other...

restless

restless

inside of me things try to get a grip
but by doing so... they seem to throw everything out of balance
in search for harmony... i'm busting out some really nasty notes

not only for me
but for her =(

which makes me sad

sad because i'm hurting her
and i'm hurting myself through the process...

only if you knew what you did to me

what you turned me into

i feel as if sometimes it takes total control of me
uncertainty fills every thought
nothing seems right

and then i calm down
just to realize what i really have by myside...

if i could only stablize and just reach that plateau so much desired

blah