life is life
Oh my god, I haven't really been online for about a week now. What the hell happened to my addiction?
Now... hm. After the summer holidays I'll change schools and then I'll leave this old life behind FOREVER. Thinking about it makes me happy. I've already talked about it in school. The girls I hang out with told me they'd miss me.
I won't miss them.
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I don't think I am cold-hearted. Yeah, I occasionally lack empathy, but apart from that I'm extremely emotional. There are people out there that do, or did, mean a lot to me and that I think the world would be a much sadder place without. But, to be honest, I don't care all that much about most people. Why should I? They don't understand me and I don't understand them.
Oh, and I don't ever want to have to go to this school again. That kinda "helps".
Of course, I spend a lot of time with those girls but I don't think it would leave a hole in my heart if they'd leave (okay, actually I'm the one to leave). That's what it feels like for me to miss someone and to know that I'll probably never see them again.
In this case I'm sure it won't happen. Yeah, it's fun to joke around with them but I don't necessarily like them. I don't want to feel bad about it but how can I explain this to anyone?
It will make sense to people who know me a little, who understand me, will also get this, but most people just don't.
I'm not that difficult to understand. I don't think people are even trying.
Now... hm. After the summer holidays I'll change schools and then I'll leave this old life behind FOREVER. Thinking about it makes me happy. I've already talked about it in school. The girls I hang out with told me they'd miss me.
I won't miss them.
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I don't think I am cold-hearted. Yeah, I occasionally lack empathy, but apart from that I'm extremely emotional. There are people out there that do, or did, mean a lot to me and that I think the world would be a much sadder place without. But, to be honest, I don't care all that much about most people. Why should I? They don't understand me and I don't understand them.
Oh, and I don't ever want to have to go to this school again. That kinda "helps".
Of course, I spend a lot of time with those girls but I don't think it would leave a hole in my heart if they'd leave (okay, actually I'm the one to leave). That's what it feels like for me to miss someone and to know that I'll probably never see them again.
In this case I'm sure it won't happen. Yeah, it's fun to joke around with them but I don't necessarily like them. I don't want to feel bad about it but how can I explain this to anyone?
It will make sense to people who know me a little, who understand me, will also get this, but most people just don't.
I'm not that difficult to understand. I don't think people are even trying.