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[kaos_kronicles]

yO, this last couple of days has been a brutal attack on the senses.. and yet still the plot thickens. So I got a note today from some friends which basically said I was actin like a cock and they would be there to help me get out of my cockish ways and wanted to know whats goin on with me in my head. So subconciously I question the whole situation and rather than take it to offense I figured well I guess thats the fine line that seperates friends from not friends... not friends will think ur an asshole and then just act like that back to you whereas true friends will go the extra mile to tell you you're bein one... oh ya, just call me Mr.Brightside :P. Well cheese I know i gave you explanation to A an extent in the car today.. but I think i'll expand a little bit now. Well for some fucked reason, could be gift could be burden, I was born with this whole subliminal need for compassion.. and I guess handling it from afar isn't easy.. but In my mind I have it set that it's gonna be rewarding.. and personally time spent even if over the phone,text,whatever is rewarding to me.. and I truly believe that.. so to anyone who wants to criticize or try to 'mess that up' good luck yo, awknowledgement from me is gonna be pretty limited. So anyways, It's kinda hard to have feelings for someone far away and at the same time get it in return.. BUT, haha dude I so wouldn't trade it.. the girl is fuckin awesome ;). It just gets kinda complicated and I want you dudes to understand, mentally its takin a alot out of me to break the barriers in my mind and have this kind of trust again... It's pretty tough, but thanks to party whores I guess necessity is as follows.. so whatever... but ya dudes dont think m annoyed at you or anything I love you guys! But ya I have a whole little mental battle right now due to some scar tissue that m tryin to clear the fuck up out and sometimes I lose track of priority and fall behind in other things so then I get stressed so ya theres the expansion of it all. I know it probly seems fucked up and I probly look like i want to see you all burn sometimes, but its like the antithesis of that you guys really do mean everything to me dude so no worries there, but I appreciate you guys bein supportive and upfront. I do however think i Needa visit MA (Megaholics Anonymous) Cuz the addiction is gettin set it :D :P , haha, na but I don't plan to end anything with her for all you Socorro instigators who are interested, she's mine! :P. As for these whole rumors goin around bout issac and her.. dude my only thing i could possibly say is.. sorry Isaac my cocks bigger dude.. hahahaha no jus playin, joke seriously, na I think it's all buncha misunderstanding and everythign will be all good whatever ya know, life resumes. SO, with that note I think I'm done for today... questions of comments? Feel free to drop me a line in the comment section i'll be happy to answer...hogtwats!
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