Perfect World.
Bored-tired of the world
Bored-uniterested because of frequent exposure or indulgence
Boredom-the feeling of being bored by something tedious
Does that define it for ya?
comethrough the core till it pours in ya head
youd rather be anything else even dead
the fucking rage grips you and makes you want to throw all that your doing away all that dull insane now pointless fucking work and just pick up a gun shoot a thousand fucking people if only for the sanity of entertainment hows that for fucking crazy not cuz you disliked them but for the sheer fact it might hold some value of cheap thrill probably because iv never killed anyone it would definately be something new to me, and isnt that what replaces boredom the act of something new or something that hasnt become like fucking work for us. life man its like a fucking job to live it and school christ learning is good, when the teacher doesnt repeat what the last 40 fucking teachers you had have done. christ if you were going to be learning for more then 12 years of your existance you think it would kill them just to make it a little fucking ENTERTAINING GOD DAMN doing everything an instructor says just cuz she wants it done and knowing that all your hard work into anything ment about as much as a one night stand -worked for the moment but past that its fucking useless. hows that for a wonderful fucking existance. existance what the fuck is that anyways? either find some trade or talent that your good at and go with it, or like every other fuck do a job which as the lame old BORING cliche goes 9-5 for 40 years then retire feeling like you completed something with your pointless fucking life. ooo you had kids and a wife well good for fucking you pal you kept a marriage together and you procreated........yes you find that you deserve a medal for fucking? wow buddy im right now in the middle of baking that fucking cake you deserve. jackass all you did was fuck the same woman for twenty years and hopefully raised kids that wont go out and shoot up their school or become catholic priests and fuck kids for fun...... yeah hopefully you didnt make a monster and thats an accomplishment??? People smile when looking at the fact that this is what they accomplished??? This should be automatic this should be like fucking breathing, shouldnt be too hard. Its what we really do for everyone else, or what we teach, what we find, how we help others, how we bring a sense of joy to the world, stopped some kid from killing himself... its when you do things like this that maybe then you should get your fucking medal you mundane cocksucker so proud of himself cuz wow you got a family and wow your kids dont smoke crack and spread AIDS. Even then say you do help people, bring something extra, save a life, give your own life for something you consider noble, shoudlnt this be like breathing as well? Should you really get a pat on the back for being a decent human being? Fuck no you shouldnt, christ you may have done better then others if you reach this point but it shouldnt make you any better then the rest of us in the world. Maybe when this is all common practice, when a helping hand isnt a rarity among the world then all you fucking people that run it can get your little medal. Until then your just as useless as the rest of us so quit smiling like you did something special for until you change the rest of your friends......your friends being all the other pieces of total shit in this world who wouldnt help anyone, who wouldnt listen to someones problems because they dont have time, who dont care because they are doing what they want to, who wrong other people daily if it is convenient to do so, until you have changed all these people, your still nothing. When you stop imposing your beliefs and your morals on everyone else. When you stop being so fucking cynical and cold about everything. You on your little cloud 9 and the rest of the fucking world drowning in dark despair. Oh but your mad at me for even saying it.........it doesnt rest on your shoulders does it? No and it shouldnt thats too much for one person to take on their shoulders. Why the fuck should it be up to you anyways? Christ your only one person and if the rest of the world isnt going to give a shit, why should you? Well heres why because if the rest of the fucking cave men didnt invent a wheel, and you didnt because why should you when no one else is trying to improve we'd all have square tires and fuck up our cars. When everyone thought their little world was flat and no one tried the theory we would all be abunch of pussies to afraid to fall over the edge and realize that hey its not a fucking square. Thats why it is up to you dickhead dont get mad at me for putting the rest of the world on your shoulders, join me in my endless hell where you apologize for everything and someone tells you its not your fault, well motherfuckers yes it is my fault because i didnt change it because i didnt change you, because i didnt change the person that wronged you, or the reason you were wronged. So dont sit their and tell me not to be sorry cuz its not my fault.......yes the fuck it is it is MY FAULT and it is YOUR fault. I will continue to take the blame for everything until their is no longer anything to be ashamed of, which at this pace, ill die in a sea of shame shaking my head at why i had to be born in your world.
**** Havnt posted in awhile cuz my head feels pretty much disconnected, either this will be my last post, or the first of many more to come........we shall see, we shall see.
Bored-uniterested because of frequent exposure or indulgence
Boredom-the feeling of being bored by something tedious
Does that define it for ya?
comethrough the core till it pours in ya head
youd rather be anything else even dead
the fucking rage grips you and makes you want to throw all that your doing away all that dull insane now pointless fucking work and just pick up a gun shoot a thousand fucking people if only for the sanity of entertainment hows that for fucking crazy not cuz you disliked them but for the sheer fact it might hold some value of cheap thrill probably because iv never killed anyone it would definately be something new to me, and isnt that what replaces boredom the act of something new or something that hasnt become like fucking work for us. life man its like a fucking job to live it and school christ learning is good, when the teacher doesnt repeat what the last 40 fucking teachers you had have done. christ if you were going to be learning for more then 12 years of your existance you think it would kill them just to make it a little fucking ENTERTAINING GOD DAMN doing everything an instructor says just cuz she wants it done and knowing that all your hard work into anything ment about as much as a one night stand -worked for the moment but past that its fucking useless. hows that for a wonderful fucking existance. existance what the fuck is that anyways? either find some trade or talent that your good at and go with it, or like every other fuck do a job which as the lame old BORING cliche goes 9-5 for 40 years then retire feeling like you completed something with your pointless fucking life. ooo you had kids and a wife well good for fucking you pal you kept a marriage together and you procreated........yes you find that you deserve a medal for fucking? wow buddy im right now in the middle of baking that fucking cake you deserve. jackass all you did was fuck the same woman for twenty years and hopefully raised kids that wont go out and shoot up their school or become catholic priests and fuck kids for fun...... yeah hopefully you didnt make a monster and thats an accomplishment??? People smile when looking at the fact that this is what they accomplished??? This should be automatic this should be like fucking breathing, shouldnt be too hard. Its what we really do for everyone else, or what we teach, what we find, how we help others, how we bring a sense of joy to the world, stopped some kid from killing himself... its when you do things like this that maybe then you should get your fucking medal you mundane cocksucker so proud of himself cuz wow you got a family and wow your kids dont smoke crack and spread AIDS. Even then say you do help people, bring something extra, save a life, give your own life for something you consider noble, shoudlnt this be like breathing as well? Should you really get a pat on the back for being a decent human being? Fuck no you shouldnt, christ you may have done better then others if you reach this point but it shouldnt make you any better then the rest of us in the world. Maybe when this is all common practice, when a helping hand isnt a rarity among the world then all you fucking people that run it can get your little medal. Until then your just as useless as the rest of us so quit smiling like you did something special for until you change the rest of your friends......your friends being all the other pieces of total shit in this world who wouldnt help anyone, who wouldnt listen to someones problems because they dont have time, who dont care because they are doing what they want to, who wrong other people daily if it is convenient to do so, until you have changed all these people, your still nothing. When you stop imposing your beliefs and your morals on everyone else. When you stop being so fucking cynical and cold about everything. You on your little cloud 9 and the rest of the fucking world drowning in dark despair. Oh but your mad at me for even saying it.........it doesnt rest on your shoulders does it? No and it shouldnt thats too much for one person to take on their shoulders. Why the fuck should it be up to you anyways? Christ your only one person and if the rest of the world isnt going to give a shit, why should you? Well heres why because if the rest of the fucking cave men didnt invent a wheel, and you didnt because why should you when no one else is trying to improve we'd all have square tires and fuck up our cars. When everyone thought their little world was flat and no one tried the theory we would all be abunch of pussies to afraid to fall over the edge and realize that hey its not a fucking square. Thats why it is up to you dickhead dont get mad at me for putting the rest of the world on your shoulders, join me in my endless hell where you apologize for everything and someone tells you its not your fault, well motherfuckers yes it is my fault because i didnt change it because i didnt change you, because i didnt change the person that wronged you, or the reason you were wronged. So dont sit their and tell me not to be sorry cuz its not my fault.......yes the fuck it is it is MY FAULT and it is YOUR fault. I will continue to take the blame for everything until their is no longer anything to be ashamed of, which at this pace, ill die in a sea of shame shaking my head at why i had to be born in your world.
**** Havnt posted in awhile cuz my head feels pretty much disconnected, either this will be my last post, or the first of many more to come........we shall see, we shall see.