not a complaint
But it's a lot of work being T's partner, and I definitely feel I've sacrificed to help his career, and that I'm continuing to feel that way, but it also isn't a pure sacrifice, it's opening space between us for both of us, but even opening this space requires work, when you've shared living space with somebody for nearly 20 years, even as polyamorous the entire time,
Do I get some sort of Poly Academy Award for Lifetime Service? Been a nesting partner with a poly partner for nearly 20 years, and we're still together. Still poly. Still fighting this good fight,
and also sharing living space with K, for now, though may not be able to afford that much longer, argh,
a large part of myself is wrapped up into sharing these two living spaces, and also my career, and also my desperate attempts to remain in good physical shape at age 57,
and being poly, and being a chastity sub, and writing about my life, and trying to meditate, and dealing with the fractious attractions of my various pleasures, and trying to live an ethical life, not many give away 20+% of their take home, peak responsibility on more axes than I'd realized before 7:11pm on Thu Nov 21,
plus the porn I'm watching right now is super trippy? forgot about this one, damn,
Goddess, I've needed more time off, taking tomorrow off, needed time away from T, easing into this not-a-supervisor headspace, easing into this T-lives-here headspace (or not, he interviewed with a job in CA this week).
But also leading people well in my new job, but spinning up into this new headspace is also stressful in its way, tiring me out, so much stuff tiring me out,
why I think having to RTO 5x/week would just be too much for me, physically and mentally, so if it comes to that I'm working the spreadsheet for dropping down to part-time, 60-80% time, or taking a voluntary demotion to fall under the union contract until that's torn up, and the effects of these things on my pension, and how my expenses would drop a lot if I weren't donating and sharing two residences,
I mean, the dollar amount of my salary is a lot, I don't need all of it,
all the things, but I have the night off and tomorrow off, and I'm not worried about supervisor stuff :-)
Do I get some sort of Poly Academy Award for Lifetime Service? Been a nesting partner with a poly partner for nearly 20 years, and we're still together. Still poly. Still fighting this good fight,
and also sharing living space with K, for now, though may not be able to afford that much longer, argh,
a large part of myself is wrapped up into sharing these two living spaces, and also my career, and also my desperate attempts to remain in good physical shape at age 57,
and being poly, and being a chastity sub, and writing about my life, and trying to meditate, and dealing with the fractious attractions of my various pleasures, and trying to live an ethical life, not many give away 20+% of their take home, peak responsibility on more axes than I'd realized before 7:11pm on Thu Nov 21,
plus the porn I'm watching right now is super trippy? forgot about this one, damn,
Goddess, I've needed more time off, taking tomorrow off, needed time away from T, easing into this not-a-supervisor headspace, easing into this T-lives-here headspace (or not, he interviewed with a job in CA this week).
But also leading people well in my new job, but spinning up into this new headspace is also stressful in its way, tiring me out, so much stuff tiring me out,
why I think having to RTO 5x/week would just be too much for me, physically and mentally, so if it comes to that I'm working the spreadsheet for dropping down to part-time, 60-80% time, or taking a voluntary demotion to fall under the union contract until that's torn up, and the effects of these things on my pension, and how my expenses would drop a lot if I weren't donating and sharing two residences,
I mean, the dollar amount of my salary is a lot, I don't need all of it,
all the things, but I have the night off and tomorrow off, and I'm not worried about supervisor stuff :-)