Wednesday morning
My plan had been to commute today and either Thursday or Friday, but after my massage yesterday I went over to see B, and ended up spending the night there, not getting out of bed until 7am. So there's no time for me to commute and still be ready for my morning meeting. Instead I'll go on a walk and be ready to telework at 9:30am.
B has seemed surprisingly chill about being in this eye recovery zone -- he's on his way to his next follow-up appointment right now. I'm worried that his eyesight will not recover well, but that's out of my hands.
After dinner last night I hit an unexpected downer, which is one reason why I spent the night, I didn't want to go home and be alone (with the cats). And I'm still a bit down this morning. For some reason loneliness is getting to me recently, and so I've been leaning on this contingent relationship I have with B when his husband and T are not around. I should get to see B again on Thursday night. But now we're not sure when T is returning, perhaps not until next week. Ben is leaving for Japan in a week and we need to see each other before then for a key handoff, but haven't scheduled it. And I'll see K soon. I feel like I need more snuggles and human touch in my life, which is something I occasionally crave. Of course, I often feel the opposite, that I need more Time to Self, but when it feels like I live alone, there's more of a yo-yo effect, more of a bipolar syndrome. T's been gone three, going on four weeks now. And having a crush on a new guy who is too busy to see me hasn't helped.
I have new walking shoes, I'm hoping this will help with my intermittent foot problems. They are more sturdy than the ancient running shoes I had repurposed into walking shoes, and they are specifically marketed as walking shoes: Brooks Addiction Walker. I run in the Brooks Adrenaline, and always buy new running shoes every four months.
As I'm teleworking today, I should be able to lift weights during my Wednesday afternoon class -- haven't lifted since before the 10K.
I'll try to learn tonight whether T is coming back Friday or next week. If Friday I might run Thurs/Sat and commute Fri, if next week I might commute Thurs and run Fri. We'll see.
Adjusting to the goopy humidity this week is irking me and contributing to my downer, I felt physically icky yesterday during dinner because the restaurant had not turned on their AC yet and so I was sweating the entire time. I think I was sweating extra because my body was still covered with massage oil. Perhaps my mood would've been better had we eaten at B's condo instead.
Anyway, time to go on a walk in the goopy air, then a quick shower so I look presentable on camera for my meeting.
B has seemed surprisingly chill about being in this eye recovery zone -- he's on his way to his next follow-up appointment right now. I'm worried that his eyesight will not recover well, but that's out of my hands.
After dinner last night I hit an unexpected downer, which is one reason why I spent the night, I didn't want to go home and be alone (with the cats). And I'm still a bit down this morning. For some reason loneliness is getting to me recently, and so I've been leaning on this contingent relationship I have with B when his husband and T are not around. I should get to see B again on Thursday night. But now we're not sure when T is returning, perhaps not until next week. Ben is leaving for Japan in a week and we need to see each other before then for a key handoff, but haven't scheduled it. And I'll see K soon. I feel like I need more snuggles and human touch in my life, which is something I occasionally crave. Of course, I often feel the opposite, that I need more Time to Self, but when it feels like I live alone, there's more of a yo-yo effect, more of a bipolar syndrome. T's been gone three, going on four weeks now. And having a crush on a new guy who is too busy to see me hasn't helped.
I have new walking shoes, I'm hoping this will help with my intermittent foot problems. They are more sturdy than the ancient running shoes I had repurposed into walking shoes, and they are specifically marketed as walking shoes: Brooks Addiction Walker. I run in the Brooks Adrenaline, and always buy new running shoes every four months.
As I'm teleworking today, I should be able to lift weights during my Wednesday afternoon class -- haven't lifted since before the 10K.
I'll try to learn tonight whether T is coming back Friday or next week. If Friday I might run Thurs/Sat and commute Fri, if next week I might commute Thurs and run Fri. We'll see.
Adjusting to the goopy humidity this week is irking me and contributing to my downer, I felt physically icky yesterday during dinner because the restaurant had not turned on their AC yet and so I was sweating the entire time. I think I was sweating extra because my body was still covered with massage oil. Perhaps my mood would've been better had we eaten at B's condo instead.
Anyway, time to go on a walk in the goopy air, then a quick shower so I look presentable on camera for my meeting.