two things

Jun 04, 2022 05:23

Two things bothering my sleep on this Friday night / Saturday morning at the house with T:

(1) My Boss caught me in a mistake -- not a major mistake, but too late to fix, and it's like back in April when I was so stressed about not making a mistake on that final project -- except now I've made one, been caught, and it is too late. So, losing sleep over my career perfectionism. I don't lose sleep over the universe being imperfect, and in many ways I forgive myself for being imperfect, but if my Boss (or somebody else at work) thinks I made a mistake ... ugh. Something to think about regarding both stress management and sleep management -- that I can't bear making a mistake in my job.

(2) Weird transient pains that seemed to be coming from on top of my front lower ribs -- referred pain from an internal organ? and if so which one? GERD related? Kidneys, pancreas, gall bladder, heart? Self inventory and consulting the Internet gave me no additional clues. Did not last long, but long enough to disrupt my sleep. If they come back again, even one more time, I'll make an appointment with my doctor to discuss. [When I had the recurrent weird butt pain that would occasionally wake me, they never did figure out the cause, though that happens far less often nowadays. Similar with the recurrent ball pain I had for a while several years ago. But if I have a recurrent pain that affects my sleep, I'm definitely having it checked out.]

Now past 5am the birds are already singing outside. June, the sunniest month in my hemisphere.

My plan for Saturday is to go running and then head to the condo for Time to Self. Whether I actually go running depends on how my right foot feels once I'm up and moving around -- I might have already overdone it on hiking, running, and walking this week.

T cooked for us Thursday evening, then we watched some TV together. Last night I cooked and again we watched some TV together, sharing a half bottle of wine -- fairly low intoxication for a weekend night. B will come over today, and I think it best that I give T & B a night to themselves, even if I didn't want a night to myself.

My asthma has been acting up the past couple days, not sure why, at one point yesterday I was thinking I was getting sick, but that passed. Stupid asthma.

In some ways it feels like T has forgotten how to do the household chores -- when I got home from the office yesterday it appeared he'd done nothing at all, hadn't even fed the cats, who were sure to complain about it to me. Now that he's not here most of the time, he's acting more like my guests do LOL. I may have a word with him about it.

Next week I'll do the office on Monday-Tuesday because I'm seeing a concert downtown on Monday and it makes sense to just stay downtown at the condo. I should pre-position a change of clothes for Tuesday morning by packing it today and bringing it with me. T has already agreed to this, but I may have to remind him to feed the cats LOL.

career, anxiety, therapy, tod, sleep sweet

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