last full day to self coming to a close
T returns from his vacation tomorrow and should be around for at least all of next week before he makes his first work trip to NY. I may not see him tomorrow, I will probably have left for the condo before he gets home, for my Friday evening date with Ben. I don't know yet whether I'll spend one night there or two, but I'd be happy with one after so much Time to Self at the house, and I do want to catch up with T. I will probably only spend two nights there if T & B request that I do for their2 privacy.
During this 10-day stretch I've had some fun on my own, have seen a couple of my favorite people here at the house -- hot tub time with each of them -- and have also experienced some difficult emotions as I adjust to the idea and reality of much more Time to Self than I've received in a long time. I've also restarted my meditation game, and am writing a poem per day for the month. And I've TRIED to see some other people for sexy fun, and will continue trying.
Today work was slow, but it will start getting busy again next week and then through the end of the month. I did each of my kinds of exercise this week and hope to run again in the morning, and then again on Sunday if I wake at the house. I'll try to meet up with the next guy in line on Recon -- he messaged me a little while ago -- I just messaged him back about maybe meeting up next week. Then next weekend my sister will visit, so, it's likely that after tonight I won't have Time to Self again until the week after next. That's probably why I felt compelled to grab myself some extra Toy Time last night, and I sure enjoyed it a lot, but I probably can't have mid-week Toy Time every time T travels, it depended on knowing I had a couple of slow work days.
I had half a burrito for dinner, put the rest in the fridge, now I'll go downstairs to watch something on the big TV. Maybe a short dip in the hot tub later, maybe early to bed with Astrid (although Sam has been more snuggly without T here). Tomorrow is running, get the house ready for T's return, get some work done, and then a date with Ben, and then I won't have to deal with too much Time to Self for another week at least.
Yesterday I very much felt like I was getting into the hang of things and was looking forward to the new mix of T traveling 50%, yay new lifestyle -- with all the things I was able to schedule with other non-T people. Today I had anxiety about the Thursday hookup that fell through, even as I felt ambivalent about it, for several hours wondering whether he was going to message me back, but I also felt like having the date with Ben on the calendar, and T returning, were a sort of safety net for the mini-rejections I've encountered trying to set up hookups. Aren't three "partners" enough, Bug, heh.
OK, Bug, go find something interesting to do, and then go to bed, tomorrow evening people will be around you almost all the time again :-)
During this 10-day stretch I've had some fun on my own, have seen a couple of my favorite people here at the house -- hot tub time with each of them -- and have also experienced some difficult emotions as I adjust to the idea and reality of much more Time to Self than I've received in a long time. I've also restarted my meditation game, and am writing a poem per day for the month. And I've TRIED to see some other people for sexy fun, and will continue trying.
Today work was slow, but it will start getting busy again next week and then through the end of the month. I did each of my kinds of exercise this week and hope to run again in the morning, and then again on Sunday if I wake at the house. I'll try to meet up with the next guy in line on Recon -- he messaged me a little while ago -- I just messaged him back about maybe meeting up next week. Then next weekend my sister will visit, so, it's likely that after tonight I won't have Time to Self again until the week after next. That's probably why I felt compelled to grab myself some extra Toy Time last night, and I sure enjoyed it a lot, but I probably can't have mid-week Toy Time every time T travels, it depended on knowing I had a couple of slow work days.
I had half a burrito for dinner, put the rest in the fridge, now I'll go downstairs to watch something on the big TV. Maybe a short dip in the hot tub later, maybe early to bed with Astrid (although Sam has been more snuggly without T here). Tomorrow is running, get the house ready for T's return, get some work done, and then a date with Ben, and then I won't have to deal with too much Time to Self for another week at least.
Yesterday I very much felt like I was getting into the hang of things and was looking forward to the new mix of T traveling 50%, yay new lifestyle -- with all the things I was able to schedule with other non-T people. Today I had anxiety about the Thursday hookup that fell through, even as I felt ambivalent about it, for several hours wondering whether he was going to message me back, but I also felt like having the date with Ben on the calendar, and T returning, were a sort of safety net for the mini-rejections I've encountered trying to set up hookups. Aren't three "partners" enough, Bug, heh.
OK, Bug, go find something interesting to do, and then go to bed, tomorrow evening people will be around you almost all the time again :-)